One step forward 10 steps back !

[kzac]

Is there another doc u could see the pills are not working i no its like starting again and its shit but u being like this is shit too! Do you speak to a counsellor at all? U could try to every night get in to bed and write a diary of that day be completley honest write all you feelings emotions thoughts and worrys on paper then put it under your bed and go to sleep listening to a relaxation tape. Do this every day and it will start to help. Stay positive you will come through this.

Kellyx

[jessy]

That's a very good idea Kelly , I am going to take your advice & do that ! .

I had a rubish night , hardly slept .

I have seen a cbt therapist in the past , never tried a councillor though .

I want to try & move forward , not sure therapy is the best option for me .

I am very reluctant to try any more med's , I faced so so many in the past & gone through all the side effects & crap that goes with trying out what suits .

I currently have lorazapam as & when needed , max 4mg a day , sometimes I need less sometimes the full dose & I take an anti depressant at night (Dosulepin) , it's the only A/D that "has" helped & "usually" helps me sleep

As I said its the last 3 weeks that I've been terrible & this is a mystery to me , why it's come back full force , I can only hope I start to feel a bit more in control soon . If this carries on I'll have to see the doctor , but he will not know what to do either , this is half the problem ! It's all guess work & I've had so many years of all this that my faith in doctors & the mental health team is very low . I'm sad to say , they have been less than useless :-(

I'm sure if I could afford private health care , it would be a different story , but I can't
Jessy x

[kzac]

Im really lucky i have a great doctor an that really is half the battle, i did a self esteem course to which was really good! The diary does help and relaxation tape he lped me sleep better cuz i dont know about you but if ive had a crap nights sleep i feel more anxious the next day! I take sertraline 150mg daily and diazepam when needed but i havnt touched the diazepam in a year but it always in my purse!!! I found sertraline suits me i still get anxious but i can cope with life on them, lol! You have got to stay positive and tell yourself all these things will help you! Be a little easier on yourself im sure your a great mom and a good wife regardless of what is happening on the inside be kind to yourself and keep telling yourself that you are great cuz you are!!!

Kellyx

[jessy]

Thank you so much Kelly , I'm feeling a little better today , fingers crossed !!
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