I'm feeling very depressed :roll: and alone :cry: right now. I suffer from major depression, social anxiety (which is the reason I have no friends online or for real), and panic attacks.
My medications Effexor (depression) at 75 mgs of it and my Clonazepam (anxiety and to help me sleep) 0.5mgs of it are not for me and I know my family doctor won't change the dosage or anything for me. :? She won't even change me to a new medication and I won't see my new psychiatrist until June. I am on a cancellation list for him but whenever he calls to give me a cancellation appointment he never tells me the date and time of it.
I'm totally on my own here :unsure: and lost by doing my medications on my own as my family doctor won't do anything about it. She tells me that its hard and rare to find a new psychiatrist as there aren't many around. yeah right like I believe her.
Its hard now as my parents are away in Portugal for another three weeks and I'm alone and by myself as I live with them to deal with this problem on my own. I feel very discouraged, depressed and alone like I want to hide from the world , whether its the internet world and the real one too.
I have no friends and no support at all. Not even family want to help me and the only person who called me was my sister but she lives in British columbia , canada and I'm in Ontario Canada.
I feel like hiding my head in the dirt and not coming out. Like hibernating which I think I will do from the internet world for now. I'll feel like I'm alone then I'll be alone. Maybe that's what is best as nobody I know either my email friends or anyone (family) don't care how I'm doing or anything.
I'm alone with all of this as I have no support system at all. So I will just not come on the net anymore.
bye for now......... :wail: