Hello.

[LeighJane]

I'm not sure what to say. I think anxiety is what I have dealt with since childhood, but it just came out in lots of different ways...usually physical symptoms so I thought I was sick. I took medicines that didn't help, and just basically thought I was different than everybody because i was SO NERVOUS about everything. I hide it pretty well. I don't know what to do. I want to be open and honest when I feel sick or suddenly have to leave a place, but I lie about it. then I feel guilty about lying and what's wrong with me, and before I know it, I am spinning in insecurity. I don't believe the doctors because they just have never helped me. Also, as a business owner in a small community, I am embarrassed to share these feelings. I know drs have to keep it confidential, but does anybody really believe they all do? and isn't their own opinion of me affected? Ideas anyone? I'll check later. too nervous to stay on here, but please answer while I'm gone.

[bcdefg123]

Hello, and welcome!

I, for one, believe that the doctors keep information private. After all, it IS the law here. There are only a few situations in which giving out that info without your permission would be allowed (such as to prevent harm to yourself and others) They may have their opinions about you in their minds, but if you're truly getting a hint of that at all, you're seeing the wrong doctor :P I highly doubt that your doctor(s) think you're crazy. Anxiety is a real disorder that takes many forms, and most doctors understand that. The best thing you can do is to try not to get caught up in that type of thinking and trust them. Like policemen or firemen, they're there to help, plain and simple.

Have you tried seeing a psychologist/psychiatrist/therapist or the like? If you haven't seen anyone like that, I recommend that you do so if possible. Chances are that they understand your situation better and will be able to help you more than your general practitioner. Not saying that a GP can't help you, of course, but a specialist might be better here. They'll be able to help you talk out your insecurities and give you strategies to help cope with them, which would most likely include advice on what to do if you get an anxiety/symptom attack in a public place.

[Enduronman]

Welcome LJ,

1. I've dealt with it since the Dr spanked me and made me cry..
2. Each person, has a condition that is unique to them, in regards to anxiety.
3. There is a very wide range of symptoms, of varying degrees, in varying areas, at varying times..It is hard to control an attack when you dont see it coming..
4. You will know what to do soon enough..read around these forums..its all there for you.
5. One thing I notice in your post,..the lack of 1 single friend or family member to talk too about it? (must be open, honest, transparent) or you will never shake this.. That is a vital part of gettin rid of it for good.. just be honest, I am.
6. You dont believe Dr's?... This is also another vital part of the issue too. You must search, inquire, ask about, find, the 1 Dr. that you can understand and trust..They are not all perfect, nor are they all idiots. Each is unique, just like us.. Its what you do with the info that they provide you with that matters..
7. No reason to be embarrassed about any of it..share it. In fact, hiding it, suppressing it, masking it, concealing it, covering it, will never open the door or create the pathway for which youre going to force it to walk. Although you may think you're hiding it, others can sense it, see it, feel it..the word is called countenence..
8. Yes, Dr's MUST keep all personal information confidential. They are not risk takers if you know what I mean?.. Plus, they see 1000's of people with 1000's of different problems so in essence..they dont find you as interesting as you think. You're forgotten soon after departure..
9. You're worried about what a professional PHD may think of you as a person?..UM, NO..
10. IDEAS: accept it, expose it, talk about it, be honest, open, find a reputable Dr., and plan your moves to ATTACK IT, rather then its relentless attack on you..it gets old..

Enduronman...

[LeighJane]

Glad to hear some faith in drs. I'll keep trying to find the right one. Psychologist, therapist & even psychiatrist w an md. Tried them all. Those drs say I'm fine!! I'm NOT. I almost always feel like I'm fooling people. Don't get me wrong. I'm smart. I know what I'm doing professionally. I just don't FEEL like I am. I know weird. Sry.

[Enduronman]

Hey LJ..

You just answered many of the questions that you had yourself..Let me show it to you.
1. Go back and read the correct methods and approach of having any chance at all of removing this terrible disorder from your life that I had typed, numbered, and explained.

If you're smart, you'll see right before your very eyes the reasons why everyone thinks you're fine...and why you still feel the same after Dr's, psychologist, therapist, and even psychiatrist as well.

Essentially, you wasted alot of time, alot of money, alot of effort, alot of talk, alot of test, alot of examinations...NOT to find a solution to your disorder/condition/adversary...you prooved to yourself and to all those professionals just how truly intelligent you are!

WHY?

Do you SEE what I SEE now?

Enduronman...

[Enduronman]

I find it amusing that you were able to hide your "countenence" from a whole lotta people that went to school for years, and years, and years to learn these things yet you are way more intelligent and clever then they..BUT,..It also takes a certain type of skill and intelligence to be able to read people as well..Thats what I find so exciting and insightful to be able to read people...that I can't even see nor hear a voice, tone, expression, nothing... Weird?..not at all....interesting.

Enduronman.

Enjoy your evening friends!

[Enduronman]

Hello LJ? knock knock..Is there anyone home??

I thought we had a 1015pm therapy session but maybe its not on my calendar..darn secretary!! I'm firing her first thing Monday...gettin me a robot!

Enduronman...