I thought i would do a diary of my commencement of this drug as it may help someone .
First off some back ground .
Just under 4 years ago started to show strange symptoms which was put down as anxiety . Before this date i had never had anxiety and never knew what anxiety was.
I was prone to depression in the past and had been on a Anti depression medication on and off for 15 years.
After being told i had anxiety i was placed on a benzo , the wrong benzo and left to my own accord . This benzo had a very bad effect on me and made my anxiety a hell for about 3 months where it installed fears at ever turn and had me at times scared to leave the house and unable to drive from fear.
When i worked out that it was the benzos that where causing the problem i stopped it and all other drugs . Over the next 3 years i fixed all the problems that the benzos had made and reduced my anxiety to a little above normal . But in saying this i found myself being depressed at times with getting over whelmed at the smallest things.
After trying so many things i decided that it was time to look at drugs to help address this and maybe brake the cycle .
About 6 weeks ago i began my Anti depression med again . There was lots of side effects to this , which in itself is strange as i have said i was on and off for 15 years and when i stopped i never cut back . All that time i never had a problem.
Anyway after giving it a good go and seeing that it was working but that one side effect was not worth the benefit i was getting i decided to cut down. I have been reducing for two weeks and getting many many side effects from this , including at it worse dizziness with nearly had me flat on my back from passing out .
I consulted my doctor on the weekend and as i had been thinking about trying Setraline , we decided that i had two options . First to wait for things to settle a bit more or second to start taking them and hope that they would reduce the side effects .
I decided the later .
Now before i go on it is important to see and understand that the AD i was on never worried me but others after my benzo problem to put it bluntly scared the shit out of me .
Anyway yesterday i downed the first tablet . A whole 25mg , 1/2 a tablet.
Side effects - feeling a bit drunkish . Clamping jaw , now this one i had coming off of the other ones , so it may be that or starting this one . It is a bit worse now.
Tired at times .
Now the good - Side effects i was having from the withdrawal are very mild at best now . It seems to have addressed that . I do feel a bit strange at times but as i said i think this is like i feel tippsy from drinking . This comes and goes .
Overall feeling great - Less reactive to things and the things the kids would do to piss me off i just go Yer right and let it go .
Sleep - which i was worried about as these drugs can keep you away - Not a problem . Am taking in morning .
Anxiety - 10 fold increase - This is NOT from the drug . As i said this is because of the time i had on benzos and it is like i am just waiting for it to happen again . Even though it is a completely different drug . I still have to use tools to control this and not let it run away .
Energy at times is really good and better than its been for a long while .
I still have a few problems and symptoms but these just dont seem to be worrying me . Its like i see them but thats all .
So there you go , day one . Overall Glad i finally did it . Do i want to have done it ? No but its not forever and is just another cog in the journey of full recovery.