So I've been on Lexapro (Escitalopram) for about 8 weeks now. I started at 5mg and gradually worked my way up to 20. These past few days I've been feeling really hopeful. My anxiety and OCD have gotten so much better, and I am starting to forget that I ever had problems with them in the first place! However, I've been feeling gradually more depressed.
I had never really had problems with depression at all. I am home from college for the summer, and I think the transition back home just really threw me off this time. Slowly but surely, I'm starting to feel like I'm growing more and more apart from my friends from high school. I have a friend from college that lives in the area, but she is extremely busy...So every time I text her, I'm starting to feel like more and more of a burden to her. I texted her tonight to try and make plans, and when she responded with an excuse, I started crying. I can't tell you the last time I cried. It has to have been at least 6 months ago. Last week, another friend backed out of plans that we'd had for at least four months. I can't help but take it all personally.
So, my question is, has anyone else had this problem? Initially, I had thought that 20mg was too much for me, but I had been super hopeful after being on it for almost 2 weeks. Is it possible that it's causing me to be more depressed but less anxious? Or is this just my "regular" emotions because of the situation I'm in?