I'm currently in a depressed mood. I was typing up a paper and noticed that my grammar was really, really bad. I got really down on myself because I take pride and value intelligence. When I saw the errors I was having thoughts like " your stupid", "these are mistakes a elementary school kid makes", "you'll never be intellectual ". Then I started to over analyze myself and was telling myself I had no talents, I wasn't good at anything and so on. I just got really deflated and started to question my life.
I know this sounds absolutely ridiculous, but I have always lacked in self esteem, and self confidence. My father always told me how stupid I was, and how I'd never be this, and never be that.
I would have these thoughts before, but over the last two years dealing with the anxiety it just seems like the thoughts and emotions are ten times worse.
I just don't know how to take it easy on myself, to be realistic about things, and not catastrophise over the most stupid things.
Sorry about my ramble, I just recognize this is not normal, and unhealthy.