I've decided to post on here because I need t speak to people who feel some of the things I do. It seems from reading some of the posts here that my anxiety isn't as serious as a lot of others, but it makes me unhappy which I feel is serious enough. Here are some examples of the way I feel:
1. Every night before I go to sleep I lie feeling sick with worry about various things, mainly work related
2. Things seriously affect me which don't affect other people e.g. Last night I went for dinner with my girlfriend. Our steaks came overcooked and she sent them back. I spent last night and today feeling sorry for the chef wondering if he's been sacked (I know how silly this is)
3. I can't go on trains anymore as I feel that every time I'm sweating and everyone is looking at me and I can't get off, and have mild panic attacks
4. I'm very aware of my own mortality - I consider most things pointless as I feel that my best days are behind me (I'm 26)
My doctor has been reluctant to prescribe medication in the past but I feel as if things are getting worse. It's worth mentioning that I lost my mum to cancer two years ago, and I'm struggling to accept it.
Like I said, my problems are tiny compared to most on here, but I just wanted to share some things.