> Pee alot. Shit alot
pmsl!! nothing wrong with a good clear out
It's great to read some posts of recovery.
It's also reassuring to read others that have suffered so eerily similar to me. Reassurance that will hopefully help others too.
Hip-hip... Hoorahh!
brain fog.that the word that best descibes it.i found that hard to explain that to people.sweating.i hate that.the water pores of me.and the lack on consentration.
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I begin to hyperventilate and the pacing begins. I'll walk the same path, pacing back and forth, moving to windows to look out if I can (I don't know why I gravitate towards windows, but I do) and the urge to get the fuck out of wherever I am hits me.
Hi Velrose,
I left this one out, it's so funny LOL. As I was reading your reply I said yes I do that too! I've always assumed that I do this as a way to kinda... walk it off... before the other symptoms start and it gets worse. Also looking out the window is my way of trying to look around and concentrate on something else other than the situation I'm in. In a way another described it as "fight or flight" that could actually be part of whats happening here too, although our homes are our safe zones when we start feeling anxiety coming it could be looking to get out just as you would if you were in a public place. If that make sense?
Thanks for the good replies everyone, makes us think / understand more of whats happening to us and why. The more we understand the better equipped we'll be to deal with it.
[QUOTE=hopeNfaith88;50461] I pause frequently and just stare off into space. Then i snap myself out of it. Luckily ive been doing better lately. QUOTE]
HopeNFaith,
I do this also. I catch myself starting to stare and then snap myself out of it before I start thinking / daydreaming irrationally which can lead to the other symptoms.
Like I said in my original post, This is the one that ALMOST ALWAYS starts it for me. Almost feels like my brain short circuits at times. Heavy feeling in head / pressure? and Brain Pain, temple areas and back/base of skull, but sometime it feels like its coming from within the center part of the brain itself.Originally Posted by Serenity 7
I get the exact same feelings. This is just how my anxiety manifests. Mine starts with "brain fog" and the inability to concentrate. Then comes the fluttering tummy...however...I've been noticing (with help of Lexapro and therapy) that I can note those feelings and staunch anxiety in its tracks if I make a conserted effort to change my line of thinking and distract myself. I try to bless and release my feelings....acknowledge them and let them pass. Your post is exactly what I went/go through. A big part of managing anxiety for me is recognizing how I feel, accepting it, not judging it, and trying to stave off the attack. It's still tough...but I'm practicing!
Thanks for the post!
I'm so glad I found this forum.
Most of my symptoms are exactly the same as what ATOMS described.
A little background:
I had my first panic attack in 2008.
I had no idea what I was dealing with.
I was enroute to work while on the bus, and all of the sudden, came on so very suddenly, I thought I was going to die.
The panic attack lasted about 10-15 minutes and when I finally could pull myself together, I was in shock.
And happened more frequently since then.
Until in 2011, the attacks took control of my life, and I was even having trouble going to sleep and waking up in the morning. Every morning was a struggle.
In mid 2011, everything else started happening:
Again, started happening suddenly, I started to stare into space without reasons. My boyfriend thought it was strange at first, and then he started catching me doing it and trying to snap me out of it.
I didn't know what was going on. I thought I was just tired or overly exhausted. Often, I felt dizzy and out of it, and the brain fog.
And I was having alot of trouble hearing what my boyfriend was saying to me. This would last about 10 minutes to 30 minutes, and then the leaky faucet will follow.
I call this episode leaky faucet, because i'd have uncontrollable emotional out pour, like something tragic happened. I could not control myself, and I'd curl up and sob like it was the end of the world.
This will last about 30 minutes to 1 hour or even more, to the point my eyes were so dried up and swollen, I could barely open my eyes.
The first few times this happened, I was usually in the shower. And then started happening when I was going to sleep. And then when I woke up. And all of the sudden, even when I was at work.
Soon, I started hiding myself in the washroom alot. Both at work and at home. My boyfriend had to "rescue" me from the washroom a few times, and tried to calm me down.
And the panic attacks were so constant, I was also dealing with migraines everyday.
I've been in therapy the last 6 months. Trying to identify my triggers and monitor and observe myself before these attacks would start.
I have been able to manage a little but I can't say I'm even 40% better. I want my life back.
Miss Elizabeth, I agree. I was struggling and torturing myself for 6 months about not working. I've been on sick leave and I was so angry about it. It's like everything in life was going along well enough, and all of the sudden, I was pushed over or dragged down like this, beyond my control almost. I was feeling so useless, and I was hating myself so badly.
And a month ago, I recognized that I just needed a break from work, and accepted that I am not working and stopped thinking to myself "bad me" and I'm starting to feel "lifted".
My attacks are coming on and I'm feeling i'm prepared, unlike before, the attacks seemed sneaky.
Does this make sense to anyone?
omghm,i know exactly how you feel.i have been of my work for about the same time.i was beating myself up about it.in the 15 years at my work.i have only had a few days of.until now.i so want to gon back.and i have been in visting my work and facing the fear.and it seems to be working.i caN NOW SLIGHTLY CONTROL the panic when it starts.gonna go back to work on a fazed return,wish me luck.and like you i think my brain just needed a break from it.my brain was burnt out
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