I'm still in high school, ive never been popular, infact I was bullied most of my life, and I still get bullied to this day.
My life at home isn't the best, my dad left when I was young, died of overdose roughly a year or two ago. I only have about 3 friends, one of them being my boyfriend. And my mom gets mad over everything, I barely talk and I'm a good kid, she just has anger issues, and has hit me before.
Everyone I know from my family has anxiety disorder, and so do I. My boyfriend and I have been going out for about 5 months now, we have the Sameinterests, and he seems to really like me.
I'm VERY shy, I will talk to people, but I get anxiety attacks immediately afterwards.
Now getting to the point, I HATE, absolutely HATE, when people touch me, it makes me want to cry.
My boyfriend knows I get anxiety attacks a lot, but I don't think he gets it. He's my first boyfriend, and we both liked each other, so he asked me out, we were friends for about 6 months prior.
He always wants to hug me, and I put up with it, but I still feel uneasy. The farthest we've gone is kissing, only like a peck, and I put up with that as well. Lately he's been touching my butt, and I just kept pulling up his hand, but when I told him it made me feel uncomfortable, he just kept bugging me with it, I really do think he thought I was joking around, because I laughed to hide the pain, but I really couldn't take it.
I can't say I love him, I'm not like that really, but I do have strong feelings for him, and this has NOTHING to do with him. I just don't know what to say if he touches me again, or wants to make out , which I dread.
I think he understand I dont want to have sex, but still, please help?