i have read a lot of the posts on this site and am putting some of the advice into practice. i have suffered with anxiety since i was a child. it runs in the family. i cant remember a time when i havent been scared of dying of some deadly disease or imagine a horrific scenario where someone close to me dies. it just goes on. i never told anyone about my fears until a year or two ago as i feel like such a freak about the whole thing and i guess was embarrassed to tell anyone. when i did tell my closest friends (2 of them) they were totally shocked as i seem on the surface like such a happy go-lucky kind of girl. always smiling and laughing but inside feeling that i am going to die tomorrow. having kids has made it worse as there are more people in my life to worry myself sick about. i am ok most of the time at the moment as i am back on meds but sometimes just out of the blue something happens and i am back to square one. i used to be able to talk to my mum about it as she has suffered with anxiety and depression for years and understands but as she´s getting older she´s gets more and more worried about me and i dont want to upset her with my fears time and time again.
thanks for reading