I've been suffering from "anxiety disorder" and panic attacks for some 5/6 months now. It's been a very hard, roller-coaster of a time for me but I now have both these conditions under reasonable control thanks to experience, some cognitive therapy and our old friend - time.
I know the condition is hideous and and can be life ruining, BUT, when all's said it done - it has its amusing side too.
If I step back, look at myself and think about what's going on, I can't help but giggle sometimes at the reality of it all.
I mean, things like; panicking for no apparent reason / fear of entering a supermarket / fear of going to work / fear of my own blummin' shadow sometimes... lol
Come on... it's kinda funny eh?
(OK, so it's easy for me to say as I seem to be getting better)
Anyway, to help lighten the subject I thought I'd post my most embarassing panic attack for your amusement. You may want to do the same. :-)
So, here's mine:
I was at Disneyland Paris.
The weather was good, everyone was having fun and on the face of it, the world was good.
BUT... I was feeling a little anxious. Not too bad, but I could feel it (you know, that slightly uneasy feeling that puts you a little on edge)
I should have known it was going to be a tough day. The massive 45 minute entrance que amidst a sea of irritated people was a sure trigger!
We fumbled our way and had our turn on a few rides, but then came "ARMAGEDDON". Basically a walk-through where you're in a space-ship and they simulate an asteroid strike on the ship.
(UT-OH! If only I'd known before hand)
So, we get in there, the lights go off and then things start to get nasty... LOL... the place is shaking, flames rise from various places and we even get sprayed with water.
Guess what happened?
Yep, I nearly soiled myself with fear. Shaking, heart racing, tight chest, an overwhelming fear and that ever-so-hideous feeling of impending death!
The little kids around me loved it but I was suffering BIG TIME!!
I had to get out... literally... so embarassed asking the staff.
Not my proudest moment, LOL