my weight fluctuates a bit usually.. only about 5 pounds or so. since nov. i have gained about 20 pounds and it is making me absolutely miserable. i work out and i eat right. i have anorexia and body dimorphic syndrome. which means i see myself as someone completely differant than what everyone else sees. but now i look at the scale and at myself with complete disgust. i absolutely hate the way i look. ugh help!