Well yesterday was an ok day. No attacks and slept through the night. Today is another story. I have been in "high gear" alllllll day. I can't calm myself. Not really any attacks, just high anxiety all day, kinda feel out of place and my home feels unfamiliar. I don't know whats wrong with me. I think I am losing it. I know a big part of this flaring up is my job. Up until 2 months ago I LOVED my job, then out of nowhere these unhappy ppl started to mess with me. They tell lies and try to get ppl not to like me. I feel so betrayed and my manager is no better. I swear he instagates fights. I feel so lost, uprooted. I HAVE to be working to feel ok. I just can't sit at home. I think thats why I am feeling like this. I am terrifed that I am gonna have to quit my job and I will be unemployed. I feel so far away right now, like its a dream. As the hours pass I am convincing myself I am not gonna get over it this time. I can feel the anxiety bursting out of my chest. I feel like I am gonna explode. I feel like a waste of space.