Fuck that thing humans call W-O-R-K
Hi D - Glad you had something to fall back on. It's the competitive nature of so called WORK and also the slave mentality that goes with it that I don't gel with. I have always been an awesome worker, but at the first sign of totalitarian authority and peer pressure in the form of work place clicks, I simply move on. Overbearing authority and click group mentality has given way to humans simply being mostly assholes today. The extremely unreliable ones are difficult to repair computers for due to never being able to get a system going with pickups and drops off. I struggle dealing with them because they often lie which only adds to the problem with me needing to know when someone is coming of not. This gets worse as you line up a number or repairs. Then in general you get those that wine and complain. I no longer am able to deal with such people. Then there are the entitles ones who surprisingly are not so much the ones without money, but quite the opposite. They could afford to purchase 10 new high end systems but want you to work for peanuts. They are also generally more difficult to deal with ... OR if your happy to work for less they treat you more like a slave ... They don't get it.
Already I am dealing with people who have had me prepare for a job, but they do not show up. Think of such as your atypical FaceBook crowed when buying and selling. That about sums up humanity today. I love computers D. Building them and repairing them. It's been my life. I have put the idea out there ... but not already stressing about the thought of dealing with people. I'll think more on it ... Just not sure at this stage.
I am even second guessing the whole mentoring thing, but that is normal for me. I do that with any job I think about doing. It really is more the Nature of what we humans have mad a J-O-B become. It really is a slave mentialy this day and age more then ever before. People don't get that. Instead many prefer to attack others for not working caring less of another's barriers. Again - carry a big stick = resist. OCD aka Oppositional Defiance Disorder. You don't have to be on the autism spectrum do suffer with that. That too is also natural. It's just that most people are typically pacified by fear. I generally respond by doing the opposite of what people expect. This means if someone raises a stick, instead of bowing down, I'll pick up a stick of my own. The equivalent in society terms is if I am pushed to vote, I won't. If I am forced to work, I won't. If I am forced to sit, I wont. So and so on. I don't see it as much a disorder but simply a boycot.
Not sure what I am going to do. People put thoughts in my head all the time whilst I am on the welfare system as a broken individual. Just because I am on a pension does not mean I escape the issues of competitive marketing and peer group pressures. It is still very much ever present as I attempt to get a handle on my boycotting mentality. Is hard to explain. I do want confidence ... but either way I go there is simply more pressure than I can stand. That upsets me greatly because I do want to feel worthy. Sadly in all directions I look, I struggle with finding the flexibility that on the surface is often sold. I doubt I could keep up with the systems way of keeping track in whatever I do. It would always come back on me in a negative way and tell my it's all my fault.
This is why I generally do things for NOTHING. No tax man or welfare dept breathing down me neck. Doing things for money no matter what your doing is just being a slave, unless of course you think your winning and then most likely see yourself more as a Master! Either way, it comes down to winners and losers. I know what losing it like, therefore I care less to be a winner knowing the price. I think the latter really sums it up for me. You get angry and bitter at first, but eventually succumb to the pressure of depression knowing that the world will never change. Rather than get all religious or new age about it; the whole prison planet theory instead makes a lot of sense.
How not to be a prisoner in a prison ... that's me path I guess.
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If I lived near you, I would help out for nothing less. I'm guessing you would give me a couple your home made creams for my crusty face. :) Sounds like a good deal either way.
Forgive me all ... if my point of view makes your eyes squint.
Later D ...