Went to a family doctor today. She told me to"make a friend."
The shame I felt when she said that was enough to send me into a crying spell right in front of her. I just haven't been able to get out enough to do so. I had met a few friends in college that I felt were detrimental to my health, such as the substance abuse girl, the bdsm recruiter, and the girl who hangs with the other race so much she looks at me like my skin is poisonous. Other than that I got desperate and befriended a teacher who knew what I was going through and invited me over for coffee and counsel. That turned into tea and crumpets with the most devious person I'd ever met. Later I discovered, (from the substance abuser, and the bdsm recruiter) that the teacher was known for taking advantage of students. *facepalm* WHY is it so HARD to find decent PEOPLE?! .... back to making friends....