Originally Posted by
lilyjane90
Hi guys.
Basically I need a bit of advice regarding anti-anxiety medication. About a year and a half ago I went through pretty severe agoraphobia and I was constantly anxious. I ended up having CBT which helped me SO much, and now I'm back at a full time job and have a relatively acceptable social life, despite not fully enjoying going anywhere too far from home.
I've started thinking about anti-anxiety medication. CBT did me so much good, but I still find myself to be anxious quite often- I can't make solid plans as I just think that I will end up having to back out, and recently I've gotten panicky again about eating in restaurants, and even had a panic attack on a date with my boyfriend and ended up throwing up which was really embarrassing. I'm worried it is going to affect my relationship and send me back into agoraphobia.
At my current age (23) a lot of my friends are going away travelling and really enjoying life. I would love to be able to travel so much, but going on a plane is a total no-go. Sometimes I ask my closest friends to go on a flight with me, but they all say no, because they just think I will back out at the airport and waste their money. I want to do it as part of 'exposure therapy', but then when it actually comes down to it, the panic sets in and i give up.
I don't know how anti-anxiety meds work. I've been prescribed paroxetine in the past but not taken it, as I was due to start my CBT then and didn't want to mix the two. If it's purely psychological, my fear of having a panic attack while away from my safe place, then how can the medication help? I'm also worried about becoming dependent on them forever, never finding a real cure for the anxiety, and also I read about how paroxetine can increase risks of self-harm and suicidal thoughts in those prone to self harm. As someone who self harms (albeit rarely) should my GP really have prescribed it to me?
I guess I just want to hear peoples opinions and if they have had good experiences with medication. My exposure therapy worked, but it seems so temporary- like I started taking the train, but if I don't take it in a while, the anxiety comes back.
Any help is appreciated. Thank you !