Miss you - Hope you and yours are well. Only just read after hitting enter. All good. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Dahila
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Miss you - Hope you and yours are well. Only just read after hitting enter. All good. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Dahila
New England is nice ... been in the 50's and rain this week.
Thinking of you all here and hope you're well.
Thank you, Ponder, I'll try. Hard sometimes to accept our faults or shortcomings. Most often I think I get in my own way.Quote:
Originally Posted by Ponder
Hey Sal, I apologize if anything I said was unsettling. If I ever 'try' to make a point, it's more about allowing rather than trying. I know it might not be for me to say, but I figure we don't fixing so we should not try. We got to stop trying, because more often than not, it's the striving that gets in the way. I seriously would do well to make more of an effort to move my body more but the more I try, the more I feel drained. Little steps - it will come together for me soon enough. Be mindful about taking the steps but none of what I said was meant to highlight wrong or right in anyway. Is enough to know we can make things harder than need be. That acknowledgement is effort enough. Is OK for us to be tired as well. Not saying we should settle for less or be content in such states but allowing what is sometimes helps. That is all. Let's not try, but rather just be. Again I am sorry if I am not making sense and I get the well meaning concepts of thriving and striving - but my lingo on such is quite the opposite.
I have coffee in the morning and think on you and all your recent telling's re that coffee visits you candidly reported on. I sold me treadmill so going to have to start walking more - or walking full stop. I have to quickly put back my gaming computer, sell this one I am on and redo my room whilst prepping to go away next week. I've been full steam ahead, but at the same time it's not like I am trying to do these thing as some kind of betterment program. no offense, but &^%$ that mindset.
I am also thinking about ditching my therapist. I just think it's coming to a head. I can always pick up the concept late on if I feel the need. I want to have a break and just see how I go without it for a whiles. I speak more on that ... perhaps in my next post in here. Not sure when that will be. Busy day tomorrow.
just wanted to say ... no need to try or I meant not to imply that way. Obviously I cam across a little strong and was just talking in general. We are ok the way we are is all - being alive is all about cycles. What goes down, will come back up. No rush. : / )
Ran into some issues with my system power up and power down ... on and off over again and again type of thing. Seems if could be a Ram issue but needs further investigating. I'll look back into it tomorrow but have to admit I am running out of time at this weekend is already upon me where I have a big trip down south and then once back home with wife and grandson, I will be heading off once again. Early night for me.
https://i.ibb.co/9TPFRV9/20211028-180859.jpg
Trouble sleeping. Disappointed I ran into some technical issues re my PC above. I've put in too much effort to have something go wrong now. My last item for sale bellow will sting the hardest. I've got good reasons to sell it and good reasons to keep it. If I wind up with hardware issues tomorrow I'm defiantly going to have to sell it.
A sales pic for later if need be:
https://i.ibb.co/dcRpqDC/ROG.jpg
Not sure what the go is at the moment out in the main. I sense some shenanigans going on. I really don't have time for BS at the moment. The drama with my family (Mother, Step Father & Sister) has come to rise again. I'll just generalize it as a case of negative behavioral patterns where I got to stop be lead alone. I've changed my phone number and ended up still having to block. I really got to let go of that shit and leave that door behind me. As previously stated my therapist has been causing me issues as well. No malice from his end. Just bad communication more or less. Reliance factor also creeping in.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz No more going in the main for a while for me. I think I am also going to use the ignore feature for a change.
Night night.
Hope your doing well Sal and D --- My spirits will lift soon enough. :)
Hey, Ponder, you have nothing to apologize for. I knew you what you meant and didn't take it any other way. Even the phrase "Feel Better" or "Be Well" could be considered an order Lol :)
Yeah, I'm just (barely) managing I guess but could be worse. Just have to bring myself back to reality because I've been too far 'out there' these days.
Nice to see you as well Dahila :)
Hope you all enjoy the rest of your week.
:) .................................................. ............................................... Thx Sal Sending you good vibes.
I fixed my PC problem - I had to remove some obstruction for the CPU chassis where the CPU sits into. Very fine pins:
https://i.ibb.co/hWzBxHV/20211029-100130.jpg -- https://i.ibb.co/ZNv3zyD/20211029-100623.jpg
Is not like me to miss such things. Must of happened when I was cleaning thermal paste off the cpu and cooler heatsink. My eyes also getting worse.
None the less I was happy when I finally got it all going:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzEmkRcKElo
Thank you for the positive vibes and glad you got your computers working :)
Same ... I was really worried there for a while. Hey man - I am glad your seemingly feeling a little better. :) :) :)