Searching for anything good...(sigh)

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Originally Posted by Blessed

E... How long did you suffer from anxiety before it took such a drastic turn for the worse? I feel like sometimes this anxiety has me so bound that I don't know how not to stress and worry then I worry that I'm worrying so on and so forth. Then it scares me that maybe im too far gone. Some wicked stuff

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I was born with many personality disorders that haunted me into adulthood.
Then, we had our firstborn child, as shit got real....stress, worry, anxiety..That was 22 years ago.
I thought that living a life in chronic stress was normal, do this, do that, go here, go there, pay the man...
Mostly, I was living my life sub-conciously but getting things done, feeding the entire family of myself and 4 others, and just living..
Then after about 7 really tough years, BOOM! All that just added up to an adrenal system crisis and failure and my body attacked itself, destroying tissue internally.
I had NOOOO idea that all this, would equal this....(auto-immune diseases and mixed connective tissue diseases) from ignoring the effects on my physical body.
I was NOT (neurotic or suffering from neuroticism) as many of you are but I ignored what my body was telling me with a pain here, a pain there..I never got help.
People who constantly worry, fret, concern, that the pains that they have are diseases = NEUROTIC at much higher levels then those of us that just have "anxiety".
Although people with "anxiety" still fall into this NEUROTIC catagory...difficult to understand I know. Neuroticism is even different too..

GET THIS SHIT UNDER YOUR OWN CONTROL, AND IF IT TAKES AN SSRI OR AN ANTI-PSYCHOTIC MED TO DO THAT, THEN TAKE THEM....

Thinking of you all,

E-Man...:)

PLEASE READ.

NEUROSIS = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurosis

NEUROTICISM = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuroticism

HYPOCHONDRIASIS = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypochondria

and if those are left unchecked, can equal PSYCHOSIS = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosis

Once you're psychotic, then it becomes even that much more difficult to help pull you back out of this mess.....HOSPITAL is next....


Have a great day, and if it isn't great, make it great!!!!

E-Man...:)

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Originally Posted by Enduronman

I was born with many personality disorders that haunted me into adulthood.
Then, we had our firstborn child, as shit got real....stress, worry, anxiety..That was 22 years ago.
I thought that living a life in chronic stress was normal, do this, do that, go here, go there, pay the man...
Mostly, I was living my life sub-conciously but getting things done, feeding the entire family of myself and 4 others, and just living..
Then after about 7 really tough years, BOOM! All that just added up to an adrenal system crisis and failure and my body attacked itself, destroying tissue internally.
I had NOOOO idea that all this, would equal this....(auto-immune diseases and mixed connective tissue diseases) from ignoring the effects on my physical body.
I was NOT (neurotic or suffering from neuroticism) as many of you are but I ignored what my body was telling me with a pain here, a pain there..I never got help.
People who constantly worry, fret, concern, that the pains that they have are diseases = NEUROTIC at much higher levels then those of us that just have "anxiety".
Although people with "anxiety" still fall into this NEUROTIC catagory...difficult to understand I know. Neuroticism is even different too..

GET THIS SHIT UNDER YOUR OWN CONTROL, AND IF IT TAKES AN SSRI OR AN ANTI-PSYCHOTIC MED TO DO THAT, THEN TAKE THEM....

Thinking of you all,

E-Man...:)

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Thank you for sharing this with us! I'm sorry to hear this, but you seem like a strong minded person with a great attitude :) That's impressing! God bless you, E-man!

The only help I've gotten is meds. I think I should talk to a therapist or psychiatrist. Which do you recommend?

Always start small,..then THEY will make referrals from that point forward once they see (if they do) that you need someone with more education, experience, background, degrees,...Start at your nearest Mental Health Clinic and UNLOAD all these thoughts that you have, to the first person you meet with.

Then, you'll get your life back where you want it to be..:)

E-Man...

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Originally Posted by Enduronman

Always start small,..then THEY will make referrals from that point forward once they see (if they do) that you need someone with more education, experience, background, degrees,...Start at your nearest Mental Health Clinic and UNLOAD all these thoughts that you have, to the first person you meet with.

Then, you'll get your life back where you want it to be..:)

E-Man...

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Will do! I will look into it right now. Thank you once again!

I do not like to scare anyone, but most of folks here are very young, in young age you can bit the anxiety, with the time passing it is worse, more difficult. later one it could be almost impossible to win with it. I know it from expierence.
If I was you, I would do something, use the excellent advices in most of the treads.
Do something, everyone has the same symptoms, and we know it all. We need to hear some success stories, and about progress...
I prefer topics " Today is a good day" " Story of my success" ; it helps with my anxiety issues. Not the topics which appear every day
HPalps
is it panic attack
Panic attack
Attack of panic
Is that me or anyone else and bla bla and bla
We need something good here, some happiness and smile
Nixon does good job in this departement, Jessed did before Applecherry chased him out of the site, Eman did with him and Mist, who dissappeared one day....

My new meds are turning me into a zombie.
It's called Lyrica. They just upped my dose from 50 to 300mg a day.
I now see things differently. These posts, the things in my house, I feel kinda drunk to bo honest with you.
Spacey, weird, loopy, goofy, and if this is how this shit is going to be then I'd rather just have pain...derrrr...
I just feel reeaallllyyy different than my usual self.
Hope I haven't pissed anyone off today, and I feel kind of flat too, persay...
The last posts I read I thought to myself, so, wtf are you going to do about it?...Which isn't the best way to go about dealing with things, so abruptly.
The world doesn't work like that, or at least in my mind I think it should...I've always been a "fixer"...
Now I look around this house and think, wtf is all this stuff??!!!! I need boxes to put it all away!!! Like now!!!
Who in the hell needs 100 bottles of supplements on a counter top????!!!! When I only use like 15 of them...
Ok,..yes, It's like I've never seen this shit before but its been sitting there for months....computers everywhere, parts, hard drives, etc, etc,..why???!!!!

Oh boy,..not sure if I should be posting right now maybe just read through some things and try to figure out where I actually am...

yippee.

E-Man....:rolleyes:

Liryca is so strong....My friend was on it, she was a half zombie;)))
One day I brought her a homemade all purpose cleaner, she cleaned all the walls in house :))

I sure as hell hope that this "high" feeling goes away I feel like everytime I look around or at something I'm surprised!..LOL!
What do you know about (Butrans) or Buprenorphine? I have to pick those up tomorrow. Some sort of patch that you leave on for 7 days..semi synthetic opiate.

Interesting on paper, but will they work??? Says it causes euphoria (I need more of that) and its also anti-anxiety too...hmmm, maybe I need more of that..geeze.

Med number 11...LMAO!...YEE HAW!!!

Can't wait, already feel like I drank a 12 pack without the bloat.

E-Bert. Man :)

Why did they increase the amount so drastically? 50 to... 300?? Yowzers!