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Hi D, it's really great to see you again. Many others have asked about you and wishing you well. You have been on my mind from time to time; fond memories re many of our chats.
Thank you for the kind words about my photography potential. There was a time I could of gone down that route but for the same reason it takes me so many words, photography can become a bit of a trap. I find the technicality to it, detracts an otherwise fantastical experience that I often found and occasionally still do at times that I enjoy losing myself in. These days I just enjoy using cheap cameras and or my phone without too much focus on gloss. The amount of gear I have in my room is hard enough but when into photography like I used to be, well let's just say my camera gear was too much for me to keep a track of. Getting harder for me as I get older. A recent test I did regarding my level of diagnosis/s has shown my cognitive ability to be more than a decade in front. I'm still clued in, but very fragmented in the way I think when under pressure. The other thing about professional photography is the competitiveness as it relates to this day and age. Everyone has to be a super star kind of thing always looking for validation. This is heavy in the photography world (+ many others) and very much saps the essence from both the experience and presented subject. Pixels, type of gear, composition, format and so on becomes too much.
The rate of technological change in that field is very much a challenge (for me) and whilst I do like keeping up with computers, something has to give. That makes it hard for me to engage online when seeking answers which is why I am mostly self taught in all I know. Hmmmm - there is an intimacy I have with taking photos that goes beyond all the need to have anything perfect and I would say that is more with words. In both I struggle to be sure but pleased and thankful for your encouragement.
For now I keep myself happily frustrated in my computer techy world/mode.
I am one again really pleased to see you pop in and hope your able to find whatever time you can in helping to keep the forum active.
Sal has been away from the forum for a couple of weeks and I do hope he is well as can be. Others have also been quiet as well where I have just been tapping away using the forum as a good grounding as it currently be for me.
I now get on with me day. :)
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Hi Ponder ... I've missed you very much and have been thinking about you. I'm sorry I've been MIA. Just struggling I guess. I don't know, same shit different day :)
I'm so very happy to see you; Dahila. I've never forgotten the advice you've given me. I've missed you.
I just popped back in today without reading much so I'll spend some time to catch up. Haven't been at NMP either forever. I love to see your pictures and what your up to.
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I get it Sal. I've had a little mini break myself and it's not because of some great vacation. lol I'm just happy you have touched base as was worried it might of been one of my behavior bouts or something I said. I have not been out much myself and feel very much the same way about people despite wanting to connect with like minds.
I've been losing myself in a few games and still learning how to record them. Here is a good bash I did in Need for Speed Hot pursuit remastered. Just a private video where I am running a few rendering tests:
Here is a link to it. It's unlisted the whole recording process is becoming a new hobby for me. Since I really don't know what I am doing I just share with my few friends for now. The new computer I am soon to build for my friend has me wanting more power despite learning to live with what I have. I'm human, what can I say. : ) For now I just work with what I have and try to do things I enjoy. Play games and record them ... This was not a bad run for an old fart like me. I did it in reasonable time as well.
https://youtu.be/nGqT00UtMlc
Catch up later guys. Be well as can be.
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I've been smelling a lot of smoke lately that no one else smells. Not a good sign I hear. I think that about sums things up for me at this point.
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I understand the smells nobody else can smell. Hate to presume, but, by any chance, are there any people around you that use a wood stove? I had a problem with that at one point because the fumes carry into your house. Sometimes, also, mold can cause this.
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I'm pretty sure its neurological. No burning off nor people using wood fires as that season ended months ago now. There are many reasons it can happen. I'm really too tired to worry about it. Just making a note I guess. Every day I say the next day I will sought out my routine ... but truly have 100% been in the doldrums before, in and after said thought. I'm riding with it but my body is getting sicker so at some point I will either break or make.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz Tonight I crawl into bed earlier at least. That there is a little ray of hope.
Sorry many of us are not doing well at this time. Keep posting guys. It's helping some ... regardless even if we are sharing the pain. I'd rather that than fake bubble and fluff!
We can try a dose of healthy pretending soon enough, but as you know ... we need to find the strength even for that.
I am all or nothing. Tomorrow I will *&^ING TRY AGAIN. Grrrrrrrr The reboots are getting so much harder!
Wishing you all well. That I at least feel is true enough.
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Despite being in the doldrums I have still been getting things done. I packed up my Super Ultra-Wide monitor and have since left that master race. hehe. A couple of days ago I completed putting together my wifes mechanical stand up desk. There is a control box, a number of leads and power board under the desk so you only have on cord to contend with as the desk raises and lowers. I'll come up with an idea for that single cord later but such things really are for the maladjusted. lol Apparently that model can take up to 140kg of stuff sitting on top. I won't test that any time soon.
Today's major task is to begin the task of creating an eBay add for my computers awesome graphics card. That said, eBay is getting expensive to sell on so I might also list locally + the market place. The good news is I already sold that monitor. Is good that I look after my stuff and keep the boxes and all. It's also good be back on my laptop.
I got in a successful walk before the heat got too much, watered my plants and about to have a game with a long distance friend. Nothing toxic in the way of food as yet and hopefully I can keep to my intentions regarding that.
That's it for the start of my day. I talk more later about my plan to save and acquire the means for X, Y & Z ... but more specifically about what my next project will be.
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Hahahahahaaaaa I love it!!!! Yea - how you like them *&^%ing apples!!! http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/laughing...y-emoticon.gif arrrr man ... Thx Pedro. That was awesome. In case anyone is wondering:
Stay in bed till much too late
Scanning situations vacant
The face in the mirror looks withered and old
My skin is grey
I can't go out
I'm always cold
In the doldrums
On the dole
In the doldrums
On the dole
Counting down lonely hours
Drinking lots and taking showers
I no longer dream about the rest of my years
I'll check the letterbox - does anyone care?
In the doldrums
On the dole
In the doldrums
On the dole
But the benefits arrive and life goes on
The benefits arrive and life goes on
The benefits arrive and life goes on and on and on
The benefits arrive and life goes on
The benefits arrive and life goes on
The benefits arrive and life goes on
The benefits arrive and life goes on
The benefits arrive and life goes on and on and on
The benefits arrive and life goes on and on and on
The benefits arrive and life goes on and on and on
Nailed it! Indeed - I love the music of the Chills. Not something that can ever be reproduced these days. Made me feel young again.
Thanks Pedro. :)
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Another productive day with another sale on the horizon. Now is indeed a good time re PC hardware. Knowing what to buy when and when to sell is key to riding such a boat. The doldrums are not quiet enough for me. I'm always spinning something on the side within the realm of family. Good luck means testing that one! All good - I'll be spinning out that tiny payout for a whiles yet. I did not think I would be upgrading so soon. Truth be told, this is all being put away in a safe place for a whiles yet. I'm hoping to make it the longest time I have ever sat on such a nest. Hard task for me. I might even gamble with a couple of choice buys and cycle straight away, BUT, doubt I will.
Tomorrow I do up an add for my current power supply as it will not do for my next upgrade.
https://i.ibb.co/gZrpy08/Webp-net-gifmaker.gif
Starting to feel a little better about things ... I always enjoy buying and selling.
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That's great to hear you're feeling better :)
