Miss you - Hope you and yours are well. Only just read after hitting enter. All good. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Dahila
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Miss you - Hope you and yours are well. Only just read after hitting enter. All good. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Dahila
New England is nice ... been in the 50's and rain this week.
Thinking of you all here and hope you're well.
Thank you, Ponder, I'll try. Hard sometimes to accept our faults or shortcomings. Most often I think I get in my own way.Quote:
Originally Posted by Ponder
Hey Sal, I apologize if anything I said was unsettling. If I ever 'try' to make a point, it's more about allowing rather than trying. I know it might not be for me to say, but I figure we don't fixing so we should not try. We got to stop trying, because more often than not, it's the striving that gets in the way. I seriously would do well to make more of an effort to move my body more but the more I try, the more I feel drained. Little steps - it will come together for me soon enough. Be mindful about taking the steps but none of what I said was meant to highlight wrong or right in anyway. Is enough to know we can make things harder than need be. That acknowledgement is effort enough. Is OK for us to be tired as well. Not saying we should settle for less or be content in such states but allowing what is sometimes helps. That is all. Let's not try, but rather just be. Again I am sorry if I am not making sense and I get the well meaning concepts of thriving and striving - but my lingo on such is quite the opposite.
I have coffee in the morning and think on you and all your recent telling's re that coffee visits you candidly reported on. I sold me treadmill so going to have to start walking more - or walking full stop. I have to quickly put back my gaming computer, sell this one I am on and redo my room whilst prepping to go away next week. I've been full steam ahead, but at the same time it's not like I am trying to do these thing as some kind of betterment program. no offense, but &^%$ that mindset.
I am also thinking about ditching my therapist. I just think it's coming to a head. I can always pick up the concept late on if I feel the need. I want to have a break and just see how I go without it for a whiles. I speak more on that ... perhaps in my next post in here. Not sure when that will be. Busy day tomorrow.
just wanted to say ... no need to try or I meant not to imply that way. Obviously I cam across a little strong and was just talking in general. We are ok the way we are is all - being alive is all about cycles. What goes down, will come back up. No rush. : / )
Ran into some issues with my system power up and power down ... on and off over again and again type of thing. Seems if could be a Ram issue but needs further investigating. I'll look back into it tomorrow but have to admit I am running out of time at this weekend is already upon me where I have a big trip down south and then once back home with wife and grandson, I will be heading off once again. Early night for me.
https://i.ibb.co/9TPFRV9/20211028-180859.jpg
Trouble sleeping. Disappointed I ran into some technical issues re my PC above. I've put in too much effort to have something go wrong now. My last item for sale bellow will sting the hardest. I've got good reasons to sell it and good reasons to keep it. If I wind up with hardware issues tomorrow I'm defiantly going to have to sell it.
A sales pic for later if need be:
https://i.ibb.co/dcRpqDC/ROG.jpg
Not sure what the go is at the moment out in the main. I sense some shenanigans going on. I really don't have time for BS at the moment. The drama with my family (Mother, Step Father & Sister) has come to rise again. I'll just generalize it as a case of negative behavioral patterns where I got to stop be lead alone. I've changed my phone number and ended up still having to block. I really got to let go of that shit and leave that door behind me. As previously stated my therapist has been causing me issues as well. No malice from his end. Just bad communication more or less. Reliance factor also creeping in.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz No more going in the main for a while for me. I think I am also going to use the ignore feature for a change.
Night night.
Hope your doing well Sal and D --- My spirits will lift soon enough. :)
Hey, Ponder, you have nothing to apologize for. I knew you what you meant and didn't take it any other way. Even the phrase "Feel Better" or "Be Well" could be considered an order Lol :)
Yeah, I'm just (barely) managing I guess but could be worse. Just have to bring myself back to reality because I've been too far 'out there' these days.
Nice to see you as well Dahila :)
Hope you all enjoy the rest of your week.
:) .................................................. ............................................... Thx Sal Sending you good vibes.
I fixed my PC problem - I had to remove some obstruction for the CPU chassis where the CPU sits into. Very fine pins:
https://i.ibb.co/hWzBxHV/20211029-100130.jpg -- https://i.ibb.co/ZNv3zyD/20211029-100623.jpg
Is not like me to miss such things. Must of happened when I was cleaning thermal paste off the cpu and cooler heatsink. My eyes also getting worse.
None the less I was happy when I finally got it all going:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzEmkRcKElo
Thank you for the positive vibes and glad you got your computers working :)
Same ... I was really worried there for a while. Hey man - I am glad your seemingly feeling a little better. :) :) :)
I only have two days before I go on a big trip. Rush rush here for me. Please wish me well guys because I want to enjoy my time and not get all anxious. So much to do today in preparations. Yard work, wash clothes, pack, reinstall my computer and still put up one more thing for sale. Thanks for being here and touching base when your able. It really helps.
Dahilia - what's been happening ... how is you little stall going these days?
Pedro? Where you been ... pop on in and tell me what you have been up to? You got any hobbies or what do you do to de-stress?
Lemon Sherbet - Pop on in as well ... forget that other stuff - What do you do in the way of hobbies - what movies you into, what stuff you got going on when it comes to much needed distraction. Like the kind that helps?
I wish you all well.
~ Dave
Just taking a big breath before I head outside whilst the sun goes down and start the process of mowing the lawn. I don't think I have said anything yet but I've been getting chest pains. I'm not the type to go and post about such things or ask for help if my heart skips a beat. That said I am starting to get man boobs, my skin is crawling like never before and it's hard to breath when I start moving. I share a pic showing the massive change from what I used to be. Those that know me, will know what I mean:
One my wife took whilst massaging my grandsons feet.
https://i.ibb.co/dbd5Ms1/Massaging-Joeys-feet.jpg
I've been doing it since he was born and it's pretty much on demand now. lol. I don't mind at all because it helps him calm down and I know what he has to go through at school. He is very different to mainstream kids and has been picked on several times. All good though. The bully types that can't help themselve and or have bigger hang ups are pretty much intercepted now. The kids in the background (on my wall pictured above) have kids of thier own now except the lad on your left there with his arm around my shoulder - all in good time. I don't blame him if he goes childless - that world being what it is and all). I only just become a poppa again as my daughter stuck in the UK (re CV19) just had a girl a few weeks ago. One of my sons just bought a house and the others are pretty much all doing thier own thing. My yougnest daughter still lives at home but we are all good with that. The homeless situation and capaicity to work are seeing many in tough times.
Righto - I best go start moving the yard equipment. Lucky it's light battery operated stuff. Low noise means I can mow without disturbing too much. My mower inside the houses of others would barley sound like someone vauming. Is good for that. That said ... Sigh and double sigh ...
It's the compfort good and the last couple of months without my main computer and doing a huge amount of research that I let meself go bigtime. I don't think that will change on my week away, but when I get back I have some seroius work to do re my mindset and all.
........ Here I go .... trudge trudge ... lol I can still laught about it though. Damn headaches too. hehe rar rar rarrrrr Don't ya just love life when your facing the big hill after rolling down the other side. :)
Mission acomplished and a bit more ... off to bed.
I left a link in your recent thread which I hope helps. Now ... about your those things you do, that help you de-stress?
What else you up to?
Hope this finds you well. I'm heading off tomorrow. The plan is to assist my wife with driving down to Brisbane about 4 hours away. My daughter has an appointment with the city hospital. She is already half way staying with her new boyfriend but ended up in the local hospital having had another one of her seizures. That's exactly what the planned trip to the city was for. I guess she will be turning up with more medical info now. The had trouble giving her a needle because she had clotted blood. Not sure what is going on for her, but hopefully we get some answers whilst down there. We might actually have to return without her. We will be sure to keep her in good spirits and provide whatever money she may need in order to get back home when all is said and done. The little fella has to get back to school and I have some accommodation booked in another town for another planned trip. My wife will be able to liaison most of whatever comes. It's been full on for weeks running now.
I best wind down. I don't exactly like the long trips in the car but will make the most of it.
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Wishing you and your family a safe trip; Ponder.
Taking a break from driving. Just swapped seats:
https://i.ibb.co/KwLDc34/20211101-094821-x700.jpg
Setting up camp in the Hospital Stay Accommodation
https://i.ibb.co/yWj0Hyn/Setting-up-camp.jpg
Whilst my wife heads off to advocate for my daughter, I have been given STRICT instructions that whilst looking over our grandson not to play anywhere near the stairs The first thing we did was send a photo after they left to alleviate their fears:
https://i.ibb.co/8BqDvBr/Being-caref...the-stairs.jpg
Sigh ... there has been more drama with the hospital stigmatizing my daughter because she has a history of mental instability. Basically the played down her symptoms and brought up her history re mental illness which had absolutely nothing to do with how she ended up there. My wife is usually the grounded on among us all, but this time she is not just as disenchanted as us. The notes they took on me in my own house when they were doing the mental health checks after my daughter got out where quite damning. Father is aggressive and bla bla bla. They actually used !!! in their notes. lol My daughter and I thought that was funny. What I was, was pissed that they came to my house/home without notice or regard to the impact on others. My wife saw how the notes were quite damaging and also how such lead to the minimizing of our daughters health condition and the being quite detrimental. It goes deeper than that ... but it's nothing new.
I am glad my daughter is seeing just how callous these people in the health industry are. Especially on the lower levels, but they also exist in private hospitals too. conveyor belt system everywhere you go no matter what tier.
Just got a call - all good ... is what it is and why I stay the fuck away from all government places, staff and so and so. Not sure many here would understand ... at least the 'stigma' side of things and how people out there abuse others based on that.
My daughter is well enough now, understands better the toxic system and being more thankful for the help her mum gives. So fuck the health professional, my wife will sort out what needs sorting and life will go on. That said, I wont be hearing any accolades for front line workers and that kind of thing within my little world. You want respect, then you give it and do away with BS reports.
Better out than in ... On with our little holiday. ;)
Edit ... just thinking more about this with my good friend on the pone. What happened was my daughter herself faced with dare I say Autistic Challengers (diagnosed) as a young person easily led in a complacent work practice (overwhelmed) where they brought up her history of mental health as a means to minimize what they themselves could not understand. In that process that doctor shows his bias with exclamations marks re notes on fathers aggression which actually took place in my own home where multiple individuals live with daily challenges unacknowledged by health workers, which was more a case of frustration with health workers turning up unannounced for days and weeks on end. Point is the way they right the notes is to make it look like the father is being aggressive at the hospital which is not the case at all ... the notes are doctored and they also went on to state diagnosis of my daughters that have never been made. It's total BS is what it is ... stigma, exploitive yadda yadda.
I would rather be dead than go to a hospital ... is how many of us feel ... I know others understand this stigma. Just that many don't write about it in such a way. I got issues to be sure ... but my points still stand.
OK now I get on with me day. Thanks for your patients. I just need to be done with this. No wonder many of us find it hard to move on. Sigh.
I realize that is a harsh outlook, but understand how it is that many are rutted into such a bleak perspective. It's easy to have a bright outlook and roll your eyes when things are going good, not much in the way of stresses and so on. Yet, I concede that my outlook is as distorted to that I claim of others. It is and it's not. I'll settle for that.
In the background a guy that bought my previous graphics card on eBay tried to scam me by putting in a claim (not working) but after having it out in back and forth communications, he in the end backed down and said his account was hacked and that the card was working perfectly. He was trying to claim $1145au ... what he paid for my GPU. Thank *&^% that is sorted out. I have to now relist some other items as had to take them off due to his bogus claim. Point is, people today are just so deceitful and ready to rip each other off at every point and turn. He just wanted to see if I would give in. Not the first time either. That said, it's just been one thing after the other.
LOL - we also got a flat. Or my wife did when she duct out to that hospital visit. What turned into one tyre replacement ended up all 4 needed doing plus a wheel alignment. $600au Caching! The flat baiscally brought our attention to what we should of been on top of. Better than a blow out on the highway traveling back. Blessing in disguise I guess.
OK - now I think all the drama is over with. I best go fall down those stairs one more time just to make sure. :)
Just checking in and reading. Hope you all are managing best as can be. Thank goodness you didn't have an accident on the highway.
Life happens. When doing a thousand km trip, moving from Sydney to Brisbane region we actually blew two tires and replace four. They blew on the highway but obviously since I am still here, we survived that one. lol We just bought the car. It was from a one time owner who had it garaged for 10 + years. Turns out he never drove it enough to changed the tyers in all that time. They looked new but not new enough.
Today (some 27 years later) we survived on the way back from Brisbane. I dropped the family at home, loaded up computer gear, said good bye to the family and headed off to another town where the emphasis on this trip is to show a good friend how to put his long awaited supped up high end custom gaming rig together. I'll be picking up what parts he does not need and testing them on my own rig. It's going to be a full week off from the family fully focused and tweaking both computers, kicking back enjoying the bliss of no family racket. We play well enough in the home, but without a break, life can suck for all involved. Fact is, they also enjoy it when I go as much as I do. hehe. Works well for me.
Thanks for popping in ;)
https://i.ibb.co/qpNs18y/20211102-183729.jpg
Last shot record for the night - approx. $9000 au in parts [GPU onle $4000] there ... not counting the $2500 super ultrawide monitor. Some of the smaller packages not so easily seen, put the price up by quite a bit. PC Parts a most expensive in Australia compared to the US and it's well known. I'm still running a few things on eBay. I nearly have enough for my proposed water cooling but unsure now as I eye off his NEO display. I'd either go the Neo display or Watercooling. - The last computer I built for my friend lasted close to ten years. So it is now that he is going all out for another ten. That said, the one I built him back then was $2000au. His business has done well and this is like what is was when I built mine with that small payout. He was my boss some ten years ago and we got along well. That's a rehash I know. He really did go on to create his own empire spite much of a failings we both endured in the disability field. We used to camp out a lot before we lived in separate regions. Since then we catch up a couple of times a year.
https://i.ibb.co/R6dgBKT/Bens-Build.jpg
Here's hoping my friend does not rearrange the computer components for when I wake up in the morning. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz night night.
Before shuteye ....
https://i.ibb.co/fdrDdM6/20211103-010726.jpg
Woke up this morning to discover there is also no power supply. This trip was months in the making. So today we are on the hunt for an Asus ROG THOR 1200Watt power supply in a hillbilly town in Queensland + that CPU we are missing. Something tells me we have a long drive ahead if we can't get instant delivery. I guess in order to have a successful business you have to as busy as fuck. Now we are paying the price. Part of the fun I guess. A 10 hour return trip might do it if worst comes to worst but will have to do that tomorrow as we are still recovering from the one we just yesterday. Today though, we shall endeavor to scourer this Red Neck City for something at least similar. Parts all hand picked for compatibility and RGB theme.
On with the day.
Edit - No offense intended for those most fortunate to live in a Red Neck City. Mores the power to you! :)
We still got plenty of wide open spaces Pedro:
https://i.ibb.co/M6dbhY7/20211103-162607.jpg
The locals did not have what we needed. Heading back now on that 10 hour round trip. I picked up some parts of my own whilst there.
If you have an address you can always use google to see the current state of development.
Are we there yet ...
https://i.ibb.co/0cwVpwX/20211103-163510.jpg
Still going:
https://i.ibb.co/8Y442tM/20211103-184437.jpg
I hope for the sake of others here on the forum that shit ends soon.
In the mean time - still focusing on my upgrades. Mine is the first computer and the other is what we put together for my friend. Still fine tuning things and the break away from home has been good for all! ;)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SBrKZ3Gf4Q
Is ok to vent and blow some off steam, but if the current theme here don't change soon, it's not going to bode well.
WTFE ... Just leave it out of this space. Do what you want in the other but I don't expect anyone will pop in with all that going on.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uMoiramtPQ
Night night ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz
Can no longer here myself think under these constraints. You guys can have the forum for as long as you need it. I think I will take a page out of other peoples books and leave well alone. You guys enjoy.
That's one down, only one more to go.
Your computers look like so much fun and I'm glad to hear the break away from home is good :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Ponder
Thanks Sal. It's good to be back. He is a video I did as still kind of on the go with not much time for anything else. That said, I will post later with something more uplifting than than of the drama that has been in here of late. Understand if you drop off the radar, but do check on my from time to time and or chime is as much as you want during those periods your more at ease and the environment as not so toxic as has been of late. Righto - off to the shops to get some coffee ... I live you with this quick clip. Sorry about the watermark in the video. I am yet to setup my computer with my editing software as my system is still pretty fresh from the recent reinstall.
Take care - back soon.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=75a-eeMwHbU
To my good friend Sal, D, and old and new forum members alike. You guys Rock! Chuckles well meaningly. What can I say. Life goes on whether I like it or not. No sense fighting that. Currently I no longer have a therapist. The Support Coordination I currently have regarding the disability scheme I am on, has become as complacent and about as useful as a crochet condom; for lack of a better metaphor. But hey, that's life and I really can't expect much more than that. When I find the energy - (and I will!) - I'll write some constructive emails seeking appropriate support whilst in the meantime bidding my time with that which I cannot change. I'll make some more phone calls as well but with no real expectation other than to reach out for those willing to help. In a nut shell, I am unable to work with disability agencies that do not connect on a human level with their clientele. It's really important for some clients (such as myself) to feel included regarding all aspects of their plan. The bureaucracy under which we all live, well adjusted or not, tends to create more than half the conflicts it seeks to amend. So it is that I am in no real rush to find more agency to replace that once before it. It takes a long time to find quality support just as it does to find people in general whom are worth the time and effort to connect.
My ongoing Computer Hobby. If you did not notice, I have one fan in my system to correct. In order to get the lights working on the rear exhaust fan I need a few more parts. To do that, I need to sell my laptop. It did sell, but the person who won that bid did not pay. Happens from time to time. Like when you sell on FB and no one ever turns up. The guy that bought my graphics card tried to claim it was broken but in the end caved in once we put together a concrete defense, where in the end he said his account was hacked and that the graphics card was working perfectly. I think I already mentioned that latter one. Point is - just like complacent work practices and staff members, there are always going to be trouble makers and difficult people. The good news is I have relisted and have more than enough watchers and current bids. So I will continue to upgrade a few more things on my custom build. More to follow on that as the parts come in as well as more research needed to install and do what I wish to do.
The world has changed to be sure - As much as l like routine nothing stays the same for very long. Our family doctor has also left. We had a good run for a few years now have to start all over again. She was a very good doctor - one of a kind. My response is basically not to go see any if I can help it. Just like with no more therapist. It's OK - That latter, whilst for me it does help quite a bit - is also good to make a change and take a break. As beneficial as my supports can be, the current level of complacency and dehumanizing practices now entrenched in the community has me thinking I would do better do go without supports. The hurdles in which people are made to jump is more destabilizing than the certifications sought. Such insights whilst alarming as any codependent relationship about to break, carries with it a sense of liberation in not having to continually prove and be portrayed at as a broken individual.
Today's Passing Thought:
This reminds me of a slogan or company name I saw written on business shirt. 'Beyond The Spectrum' I commented to my support person whilst out shopping today - "What's wrong with being on the spectrum?"
It's all in the lingo. Sure it's a well meaning company slogan, looking to inspire diversity and inclusion to a wide variety of disability clientele. Yet I find the fallibility of that which drives such industry as it has well become, very much encompassed in it's slogan. Proposing that the spectrum itself falls short and in need of wanting. It's an irony from my perspective. 'Beyond The Stigma' would have more meaning, but not as catchy to imply that one's business can take people from one lessor category and put then in a better one. Sales, Marketing ... I say there is nothing wrong with being on the spectrum. If you want to allude to the stigma, then use the word stigma instead.
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Intention for tomorrow. Help clean up in the morning and install my new CPU Water Cooler. Perhaps make a video t show off a well chosen animation, that can be displayed on the new CPU Block.
This is my Goal ... I will also include a Bicycle Ride just for health sake; weather permitting.
All in all - despite quite a few uncertainties and ironies I see from day to day, all is as well as can be - even when not so well. It's worth sticking things out and taking small steps. I'm actually happy with my latest projects and call them productive all things considered. I know my friend is very happy with his new custom built PC. I am happy I got the chance to build another one and also do some work on mine.
This concluded my journal entry for today. Wishing others as well as can be.
My dear friend, what to say. Normally, I question you when I see what appears to be a quick harsh decision, but I'll trust you and your judgement and we know what is best for us. I TRUST that the positive energy and forces that be will not steer you wrong and you will find a way to survive and continue doing the things that bring you joy; even those little things are small, they give you drive to live another day. You have a grand purpose and I (personally) believe it is to take care of your family because they greatly need you. Love ... well, I (don't think) its what people think, rather a strong unbreakable bond that no system can take away. You are not broken, but brow-beaten and battered; but 'worse for the wear' here you are. "They" didn't win.
Ok, I will also confess that I'm also taking a break and have put off my case as well this year. Nothing is going to get accomplished and my therapist knows it's an uphill battle and she doesn't feel I'm 'up to' at the moment and should focus on day-by-day more important matter of basic survival.
Sorry, have to stop as I am dealing with huge chunks of memory loss and confusion, so I'll try to write more later, but if not, I"ll continue in the AM. Mercy me ... its only a bit after 7PM and there is nothing left of me, but I want to just post this even if it makes little sense.
Tell you what: Lets just take a brake and remove the shame and get through this strange year and enjoyed hobbies and distractions.
Sounds like a good plan. See, even the therapists know just how disabling health care services can be in the waring down of applicants, applying for promoted schemes.
I'm all good with recording my hobby activates in here. I'll understand if I don't see you on for a bit re taking breaks. All good.
Thanks for the encouraging words. :) It helps a lot.
Oh I mean I'm taking a break from going forward with my disability case .. I'll still be here around the forums. You nailed it, I'm worn down too far this year. Honestly, I've been anything/everything but stable this year, sad to say.
I'm glad I said something that helped you.
Totally random side note: Yeah the world has changed and people are so stupid now they would fall for anything. You know people (and search engines) are reading this because you put 'out there' "a crochet condom". We can turn this into a thriving business with sales going through the roof. We'll have to hire people and decide where they [crochet condoms] will be made. All we need is celebrities to jump on board and the whole world will be into this new HIP fashion statement and fetish. Business got started in crazier ways; all it takes is a dream ... or dare I say: a twinkle in the eye (pun intended)
Ok .. so a business name for this new various style and colored crochet condoms business. Something to think about :)
I hope I at least made you chuckle with this one :D :D :D
HahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA ... just collecting my thoughts here. I really needed that ... Thx Sal. I go savor this induced feeling (very grateful for it Thx Sal : D) ... still rofl ... grab my morning coffee and think about my next post. I need to compose ... BRB http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/laughing...y-emoticon.gif
The Irony of Language / DISCLAIMER / Covid19 A Brave New World / The Unvaccinated:
The Irony of Language:
I can't believe I used the word CURED in the title I did. I'm sure I was being sarcastic. I'm referring to the title I made: 'How Walking Cured MY Depression' thread in the depression sub section of this forum. I've always been of the thinking that you can't cure natural states of being. Whilst some of those states are less desirable than others and being in them for unnatural periods of time is detrimental, but to consider that nature is in need of overcoming only plays into the current state of things.
I'm thinking bulldozers both literally and metaphorically where human conditioning is to drive people into to grabbing the bull by the horns and push on trough a narrow corridor, thinking of little else but point A and point B. The latter nothing more than a program that suits only the few at the cost of many and a destabilizing planet to which the billionaire Elon Musk is currently adopting the same mindset to get off this rock. I tend to think that man's ambition is as flawed any marketing scheme. Whilst I sense more capitalist ideals being rehashed that will only see the same failings from one planet to the next, I do wish Elon's aspirations (regardless of marketing) well for the genuine intent many hope those to be; including himself. To be fair, it's not for me to propose I know the mind of any other, other than myself. That said, going by the 'Outside My Front Door' policy, I see only the world in decline like some kind of 80's dystopian sci-fi.
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DISCLAIMER: This freestyle write up is not meant to be a downer as I myself make a mental note of that right now. I am just looking at things as I see them. The trick is how I choose to express it is all.
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Covid19 A Brave New World:
Which now brings to mind The Irony of Language: 'CV19' being whatever that means to me (I'll get there soon) and 'Brave New World -Novel by Aldous Huxley' I know I have touched on this before and some people may find boring. I on the other hand can't help but think it's very relevant to today. I don't mean in terms of whatever Vaccines either. Whilst 'Brave New World' entails controlling the populous by means of drugs. I'm kind of looking deeper than just that. Social conditioning can be just as blinkered as pharmaceutical controls.
Like the quest to make everything all smiles and pain free shows up well today's short comings in the following:
https://i.ibb.co/PxMTQz4/Necessary-P...at-max-1mb.gif
If you do not know much about the Novel 'Brave New World' go give wiki a Read. It's very interesting and very relevant:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brave_New_World
Soma I think is the name of the drug used in Brave New World and once again I am not so focused on the obvious control mechanism of using chemical constraints to control and make a population manageable. Fact is, that is really nothing new. It is and it is not. The social conditioning/engineering however, that has been going on in the background to Covid19 is much more interesting for those who've been awake to this kind of thing. Such insights do come us as making one feel like they are alone and powerless as such. That's pretty much how the program is designed to have people feeling when it comes to anyone waking up. So what's the answer when you see all this manipulation going on? For me I seek to stop asking questions and expecting answers. That kind of thinking just feeds the program with resistance that's about as helpful as a police officer screaming for peace and quiet. Go figures. I think that sums up society quite well. I've resigned myself to simply see society fail. BUT - in doing so, have no issue with writing about things as I see them. Writting about the methods used to control, how to keep winners winning and losers losing. Every success in society as it be, is built upon the loss of others. The justice system carries with it a vindictive nature that could not be more corrupt. We humans today could not be any more vindictive towards each other in a world spiraling into more and more division.
The Unvaccinated:
On the surface - YEA sure - it makes sense to control a virus with separative measures, BUT - what's going on right now goes far beyond and much deeper than what most sheep are lead to believe. Sheep? Trigger word to be sure, just as Tinfoil hat also be buzzed left right and center. Conspiracy! - Conspiracy! The media cry - bla bla and bla on this side of the fence and bla bla and bla on that side of the fence. Distractions, distractions. Like I don't mind my hobbies, but I'm talking about something else here. This is where I just fall back to my 'Outside My Front Door' policy. Except whilst I care less for both sides of the equation, I do pick up on just how toxic people are becoming. It's an energy thing. How energy works. It's true that both sides of the equation can affect the other. It's why I look to minimize my exposure to all forms of commercial, local and mainstream news and directives. When you look at the energy in it's purist form - reflected in the world outside ones door, that is how you can gauge the true meaning of all the bla bla re the decision making and chosen policies. I'm not sure where you live, but here in Australia the police are very much standing over people when it comes to ensuring rules are followed. The News Readers, also stand over people with a well selected and chosen tone designed to instill anxiety and fear. For some it becomes a drug like a codependent victim who can't leave an abusive relationship. The social stratification talked about in Brave New World hits the mark so well, that it's no wonder that Novel has been banned so many times.
Now whilst I wish to avoid any directives given/forced by authorities, I will give in without feeling shamed but just work on the despair of living in such a world that aims to divide and conquer. Not that I care for going out often, it is annoying that I can no longer have a coffee with my support person because I am unvaccinated. I now find myself confronted depending on the shop when it comes to my so called right to enter. (some shops find annoying because of the hit on business - but it is starting to happen) Even now going to hospital or seeking medical help is met with division if you have not been vaccinated. This aspect I care less for as I detest the medical system and 'generally' only go in a crisis situation. The point is - at least here in Australia at this current time, the whole focus on being vaccinated as conditioned by media and government puppets - is leading to more than just "You can't come in ..." The energy of those show boating their compliance is rather sickening. The sheep mentality and conditioning that sees people acting like police is something that I will never respect ... even when I eventually give into stigmatized coercion.
Getting the Jab - is not just about getting the Jab anymore. The Jab represents the tipping point in that Brave New World. It's no longer about choice. Choice can be sold behind a long campaign of division which in the end is no choice at all. If it's not the Jab, it's both parents working where disincentive and stigma sees less and less people raising families in a natural state. Todays entrepreneurs, tomorrow leaders were raised by self promoting ideals, social stratagems, expectations and all the conditions that come along with today's cultural conditioning.. They know not of what compassion and selfless living is or the importance to having such things. The new generations of today and tomorrow are devoid of such traits only driven by ambition - social scoring and above all else - fear of being seen as anything less. The very essence of social strategisim. That being the conditioning that goes on behind social media, where social media shows just how mindless and devoid of humanity our species really be.
Thank goodness I still have the space in here. Smiles.
Sigh ... I'll be making an appointment to get my Jab soon enough. I getting about as much drained listened to those against it. lol - Neither side has offered anything of hope. Each side is as resistant and tiering as the other. I take the Jab under duress and care less for the claims of what is best. I reiterate, I beleive nothing the main stream influencers say. I follow along as someone being forced into it. I follow along as someone awake among a bunch of psychotics zombies. In once sense afraid to fart for fear of being set upon. In another sense, I could care less anymore because I care less if I get sick and die. As for suffering before death ... such is all this life has ever offered. There have been glimpses of joy and bubbly feelings, but in the scheme of things and reality being what is when waking up, there is not much to lose by playing along. If I do not get sick and die, I will still have to suffer the vindictive nature that is instilled in all of us. Best I can do is work on my own attitude as there really is far worse going on that CV19 itself. The response to it is still more toxic and the social stratagems that have worked well for so long, are now being consolidated with new ones timely being rolled out. These centralization of the world and it's local regions is now complete. For me - there is not humanity left. Just a bunch of actors living on a stage - yet it's very real. Welcome to the Brave New World.
Next ... How To - Live in a Brave New World? I thought I was going to stop asking questions? Oh well.
Solid day working on my new CPU AIO Liquid Cooler. Way to tired to show that one off at this point. All in all - not to shabby. I know I said I would do yesterday, but given I completed it today I am quite content with that. I also did my cleaning as well. I even emailed some feedback in an attempt to correct some issues re my supports.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Night night. :)
Great to hear you aren't giving up your supports - they need to know why you are not happy with it. I lack the energy atm to even give feedback other than what I tell my therapist and doctors and they are aware now of my situation and might help me because its become clear as day that I'm badly struggling.
Yeah, My computers keep my busy as well. Love to tweak these old clunkers. Learn something new every day. My rigs usually runs about 46 degrees unless I stress it and its got more than a few issues ... just like me ;)