eh I hate this world guys, everything is good, except I am not happy on this planet, Good cause I do not have many years, rather the limited number......... Today I hate everyone, yes me D. I do hate people ..............some days
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eh I hate this world guys, everything is good, except I am not happy on this planet, Good cause I do not have many years, rather the limited number......... Today I hate everyone, yes me D. I do hate people ..............some days
Funny thing.. If I go along and enjoy my own company will little involvement form other people, things don't seem so bad, its other people that ruin a good day for me. The religious nuts are already coming out of the woodwork this year which makes things nasty for me.
Reading you loud and clear Dahila. It's the same with me when I am stable enough to take in the early or evening sun whilst bathing in the fact that I too will eventually be done. It's moments like that, that I am able to truly breathe. There is solace in what you say D. Many people do not understand it. I find it's a positive way to welcome death. It's a sad fact that we are taught to fear it. So much so that we live a lie ... aka ... Living The Lie.
lol Sal - I thought at first "that's not funny" but your right ... I ended up laughing because if I don't ... Grrrrrrr. Yes we get them here to, but all throughout the year. Knock Kock! ... I find the spamming of all kinds just as intrusive. You can't even rest in your own home without people knocking or ringing. From solar panels to Jesus.
Check this out ... I just took a photo of my front door:
https://farm5.staticflickr.com/4873/...f8bc6b4b_o.jpg
Lest the devil answer with no joy to be had. Lisa created it as a means to keep me calm as the courier drivers knock way too loud and always in a rush. In a sense it says more about me but since putting it up I am now more amused at how various people react. I still get annoyed with one guy who yells out "AUSTRALIA POST!!!" Kind of an irony ... I just smile at that guy despite my annoyance and his obnoxious resistance. Others then knock extremely softly ... go to the other extreme ... that one usually brings about a smile on both ends of the door. I leave the sign up because of that latter fact. Tradesmen also seem to have different reactions - my support workers think it's cool.
It's the most polite way I can forewarn people ... lest a demon answer the door. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/de...y-emoticon.gif
Once upon a time ... such respect did not require such signs.
I'm OK with inviting others or even putting in a request for time with others, however I am the same Sal that when other people interrupt that time or my solace ... I get all conflicted and wind up in a fuss. Interruptions such as my family or friends needing genuine help does not seem so bad, however if it's just someone wanting to sell me something thing or some belief, then yea ... that is a real pain in the but. I'll respect it ... but that's another story which requires respect as well.
It's harder when we are down and out hey? I think it's fair enough and that we should not beat ourselves up ... but I do admit when I am feeling more up ... that I can handle that kind of BS a little better and might even start to think like a sheep giving the BS smile back. "Hello how are you today?" but then you know ... every now and then you get that "Do you know Jesus?" Well perhaps things have moved along in that regards. PHEW ... Yet ... it still happens as you say.
I don't know man ... maybe we should just get in the spirit. Take the zombie fever to the next level and walk around like ice cream cones with big bright eyes and a wide cheesy smile:
https://i.ibb.co/5WTFxYx/hello.jpg
Hello, Hello, Hello, Good Morning, Good Morning, Good Morning, Merry Xmas, Merry Xmas, Merry Xmas ...
Perhaps get really excited and go on FB and advertise myself for free casual licks? Seems to be the in things these day. lol. arrrrr ... got to have a laugh man. Free Lick anyone?
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Seriously ... I am going out for coffee this morning with a friend. Long over due. I have been asked to write about what I would like to see in a group. As in 'Group Therapy.' Currently I have been living very reclusive and whilst I like my solitude, I do feel the need to get a little more active out of my house. I have been struggling to get back up this time around. I see if I can focus more on that with the next few posts.
Adios until next one.
Have a good day/evening guys. Remember folks ... we can say whatever we want in this forum. Use that to your own advantage. Self moderation is key, but we understand our limitations in this forum and won't criticize or threaten you if you accidentally fall off the edge. If we do - it says more about us than it does you.
Yeah, I shouldn't worry about it so much, so long as its not personal to me directly I can overlook it. Just when people say I'm going straight to hell I get all jacked up.
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I'm digging the ice cream face. :)
Back up and out doing the late afternoon sun walking a couple of miles at a very mild pace. Spent the whole time on the phone via blue tooth ear phones. Whatever works. In fact I talked my previous walking partner into starting walks on his side of town whilst I walk on mine. That way we each wont interfere with the other's pace, but be back to priming our circadian clock. Without a doubt its the key to my sleeping success. YAWNSSSS ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz
He is the guy that comes over my place 3 times a week to do body weight exercises. The funny or sad thing is ... I have a gym membership whilst doing all this and have hardly been accessing it; yet I am seemingly set to keep quite active without it. I start with a PT soon enough. That's really going to help motivate me on many fronts. FOOD is the killer though. But again ... the motivation boost I winding up will supersede most of those negative tendencies.
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I have been so drained this last week ... but have made it through ... does not feel like the middle of the week. I often do not know what day of the week it is ... but again ... that's all about to change. I can't beleive how far I regressed this time around. Not to worry ... getting back up is a process. I am feeling confidant that I'll be alright. I just need to work out some more alone time.
Night night ... http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/sleep/sleep.gif
LOL The police just knocked on my door ... but guess what ... They knocked Softly and apologized for distributing me when they left. See three posts from top of page.
Even Lisa had a giggle. hehe.
They were after a someone else ... next door.
That sign surely has to stay. :)
I'm always mindful answering the door now, knowing that - that sign is there. Whatever works ... right?
you guys are kind but I just do not open door if they are persistent I open and say dont spek eglash then bam the door closed
I've been walking every day as well - during the day to do just that - correct my circadian clock, because my sleep is very erratic as of late. I'm ok, dealing with bouts of mania, but its hard to say this, at least I can work with that and enjoy things and feel alive, better than being numbed from anti psychotic meds; I refuse to take those ever again. Today was good, walked almost 2 miles (to the dollar store and back) and wasn't lonely at all. Its a feeling for me (only speaking for myself) sometimes it creeps in out of the blue with (or without) the presence of other people. Believe it or not, I used to be a social person way WAY back, but I've changed (intellectually) and (as I see it) I've adapted to my conditions and circumstances which account for some of the changes form well over a decade ago to whom I am currently. Maybe that is not so wrong actually. I'm not that same person but I was also very very Naive and gullible then.. so not all bad.
Oh and I peek through the eye hole and unless it the manager I never answer the door; never.
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Thanks for the read Sal. I guess that's why it is often said that wisdom come with age. A refining process that many others to not get.
Holly crap Sal ... I hope we did not deadlock our doors https://i.ibb.co/vPjTr8n/Keyhole-mini.gif http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/ne...ry-nervous.gif All good ... I got a spare for us both. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/ha...y-emoticon.gif
In a rush but I check PM when I get back and think more about what you said Sal ... Uncanny how I think the same way. I connect very much with both you guys with whatever you type.
Got to go ... my digital walking partner is waiting for a call ... just as well I we are both able to disconnect : )
you guys not going to believe, yesterday I wanted to restart computer and my SSD disk borke, They made a clone and exchanged for the new one, like one hour, of course not charge,Never any disk let me down in 5 computers. eh . any way I do get up with the alarm clock does not matter if I had sleep few hours. I am getting up anyway, then go early to bed and have no problem to fell asleep. Sal I was called a social butterfly but I am everything but that, I had changed , I am not the same person, not even close what i was 10 years ago
Srry to hear about the SSD drive. RIP - Hope the new one is up to scratch.
The new generations and the older ones still asleep/clinging, refer to such changes as no more than bitter and depressed aging akin to nostalgia. I'll admit one can become bitter and depressed, but such changes have nothing to do with nostalgia. It's more a case of waking up and having had enough of the drama.
Nothing wrong with wanting to be alone ... wanting space. I like connecting with others ... but finding more and more ... I need my space. People who can't live with themselves usually need others to hide behind ... whether it be behind one individual, larger groups and or typically ... systems of beliefs and ideals.
I hope your computer was still covered by warranty Dahila.
I even created a thread here about battening with bitterness either last year or the year before. I have to be careful with nostalgia; that can send me into a tailspin. Even had to throw away old pictures that were triggers.
oh yes it is covered :)
Something Different:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oM1c1MH0q7E&t=614s
The Last Thursday Theory also makes a lot of sense ... yet I still have questions. Always will. All theories sound feasible to me. Take your pick. :)
Was sleeping really good but then got a call from a private number well after 10pm. Some machanic claiming I called previously. I could not remember, but then after the call ... thought what businesses call after 10pm?
Now blocking unknown numbers regardless of many governments depts that often call me. It's not worth the hassle of being harrassed. Hopefully those calling with a private or hidden number will receive a message telling them that the person they are calling has unknown numbers blocked so they can decide if they really need to talk, they can do it honestly.
Now to get back to sleep. Zzzzzzzzzzzz God fucking damn it! Grrrrrrrr
All good ... did the following two exercises and feel much better now. This is why we need to drink more water and keep moving guys:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaefdiE4ovk&app=desktop
That phone interruption greatly impeded my sleep last night. Nevertheless it was just the trigger I needed to get serious about cutting people out of my life that have the potential to stress me like so. As well as block all unknown numbers, I have switched off my message bank and the annoying txts that let me know when people have called. I'm also going to start leaving my phone at home more often and look into just getting an mp3 media device or just revert to my old mp3 head set. Fact is I would do better to start venturing out with less static constantly being attached to me ears. I'm also struggling going to bed without it being like so.
Another good move would be to clean up me email address by unsubbing and blocking. That way I might start using my email in a less stressful manner. The thought of my email account is as distressful as that when thinking of my phone. I really need to get back control of my life and I can't do that knowing just how much people have become slave to their devices. Sure many love this aspect ... but not me ... not since waking up. It was not so bad during those days we were asked when installing software if we would like a service to then simply tick the box, but now it's all about being subject to everything where if we do not want something that it's up to us to make the effort to un-tick ALL those boxes. Many of the newer generations will not understand how much freedom we once had. Moreover just how oppressive our lives have become.
From now on, I relegate my phone to a very small number of people and use my email in my own time. I have some work to do regarding my email as it currently weighs me down.
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I never really considered just how much I have been drained via my phone and email, let alone all the door knockers. I never had this problem 20 years ago living out of town. I still had a phone and email address, but it was nowhere as bad as things have become this day and age ... regardless of living in town. I don't mind living in a larger place where I can access more services and community groups, but not at the expense of continual intrusion. Not to worry ... I will start addressing these points of invasion and advice those services that wish to hide behind private unknown numbers that they will have to use email as I am no longer using my phone.
Email also has the benefit of holding people accountable ... which is why so many services do not like to use it. Being called out of the blue is also something not good for my focus and leaves me vulnerable to being easily influence. This dynamic is something that many people and services exploit. I really think I am onto something with all this blocking, cutting out and dialing back of use of said devices. I even think this might be the case with cutting back services.
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Righto ... on with my day.
Adios until next post.
PS - Don't bother calling! Email me and I'll get back to you next year. ;)
heck i have 200 numbers for blocking just 61 left. I have display so I usually do not pick it up. Except this time of year when people are looking for xmas gifts and they call and come to my place
If not for my wife ordering parcels all the time, I would look into just doing parcel pick ups. I pick them up in my own time without the hassle of people coming to my door. It's the only thing that sucks about buying online.
Back into the gym a few times running now ... had service agreement with PT - still working out with friend - still walking on the odd days ... Is very hard to break through the level required in order for my body to detox to the lvl it must - but getting there. Writing this because it's the next level of pushing myself ... something I should be writing about; but have not.
Just woke up ... now heading into the gym once more to hit some cardio machines that will allow me to exert myself without stressing my joints.
Get going Dave ... it's finally starting to work ... once more. Up and Down like a merry go round ... this I know ... which is why I have been allotted the PT for what we hope next year will account towards some sense of stability.
Will watch those vids later. Wasn't able to get on the computer yesterday. You seem to be doing better :)
Whenever Sal ... not a requirement as you know. Oh yea ... thx for the friend request. All done. I finally found something worth binge watching on Netflix. I best get back to that. ;)
Morning guys - Today I am aiming for a relaxing one. It's not a bad start. I woke up around 4ish. After relieving myself and venturing back into my room, I parted the block out curtains in order that the morning light could do it's thing. My body decided it was too early to get up just yet so I lay back down for a while and posted elsewhere in the forum. Now things weren't all that rosy as I was still feeling the effects of the days before. As I lay there I stretched here and there thinking about the previous post I had just made, wondering how I could take my own advice on move on with the day.
So it is I that I calmly watered my outdoor plants, appreciating the relative cool whilst pondering the heat I know it to come. After that I came into this room I now sit, loaded up my com, searched for some gentle light morning music and started streaming this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eo9qB-vqSiQ
Now whilst I am aiming for a gentle day ... it's going to be tough! No FOOD for me for the next 36 hours. Yes ... I have reached the next level of gloves off! My efforts these last couple of weeks are starting to kick in. I've been going hard core without really been writing about it. I did not want to sap myself but now thinking I'm on par to motivate without tripping over myself. I smile to think of Sims 3 ... one of my sims doing just that as when they're just starting out on a treadmill.
So many facets to 'getting back up.' I guess I'm kind of thinking about that as I approach my day. Right now whilst knowing I'm in great need of resetting my stomach and focusing on that - I'm also aiming to NOT think to think too much about that. But before moving on I do need to acknowledge just how sick, yet again, I have become. The seesaw effect I know many of us have experienced; particularity those of us that deal with long standing clinical conditions. It was watching that video I recently linked on the second brain. I beleive other forum users have posted on the topic of Gut Health being the same. Then I have also discussed the Vegas Nerve. All very relevant stuff. Those anti-depressant foods we rely on so much pretty well dumb us down and slowly kill us by literally robbing our desire to do the things we love. Love being somewhat distorted on other fronts.
Once we are worn down, the influence of our society and its prime agenda takes hold to which further sucks our sovereign power. Alas ... let's not finish with the core of the problem, but focus on the solution. Unfortunately there must come a level of discomfort in order to break free. It does get better ... enduring the cycles is where I find it's at. Stability is different for different people. Many of us will continue to live our lives up and down. I do not beleive in the medical model of equilibrium as the levels defined by practitioners are meant to keep people dependent. I'm all about healing myself.
On that note ... I drink some more water and go for a walk. I've been without food for 13 hours now. I just have another 24 to go. :)
Time to heal my second brain. hehe. Seriously ... go watch that video I link one page back ... Hmmmmm ???? here I link it now:
Have a good day guys.
Back from a walk and wishing to leave a note on a topic integral to my quest for stability:
Becoming a Student of Desire.
Not for everyone - but those open to zen philosophy may benefit. Nevertheless something that effects all of us.
Just consumed season 3 of Travelers over the last two days:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyEijpJ9YL0
.... and 'That's' how Sci-Fi TV is produced .... not that bullshit spaceship horror crap they turned Star Trek into! Grrrrrrr
Don't mind me. I'm *&^%ing craving food big time. Is all good. I know it's the beginning of something special. It hurts in a good way!
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Now ... what else to watch?
Good to hear you've been walking. Walked every day last week and my legs already feel stronger and my balance is better. Walking in the fresh air is underrated. I actually have an exercise room here with equipment I don't have to pay for it but when I get there, there are people sort of flexing and primping and showing off like a fashion show, sort of makes a flabby pale guy like me a bit self conscious haahaa.
That image complex is not good to be around Sal. Is why I actually avoid the gym. All of my friends are flabby pale people. hehe. laugh out loud. You made go haahaa too. Congrats on the walking ... undoubtedly the best medicine of all. That said Sal, whatever your doing keep doing it because you have been sounding well of late; despite the things we can't change ... I get that, seems you do too.
Although I completed my 36 hours water fast, I jumped into my exercise to quick and seriously pulled a neck muscle so badly that it hurts to lift my arm, open my mouth and hold my head straight up with eating. This relly sucked this morning because I was hungry. The guy I was exercising with knows a retired masseuse with some physio therapy experience and has organised me a visit. Got to leave shortly actually.
Sitting on this thing alleviates it a little which is not good ... as I beleive too much time on my com has lead to bad posture. That said ... I did push myself into a stressful situation these last 36 hours, did not warm up before diving into my push-ups which is where and when my neck muscles knotted up.
Sal ... just do what keeps you happy man. I push myself the way I do as is part of my imbalance. I've been getting bored of late so tend to jump into new things ... hopefully this neck issues I have now will not require a GP and referral. I know 50 is not that old compared to 70 but I guess it is a factor I need to remember when working out with others half my age.
Catch up soon. ;)
Oh I just finished watching travelers, only 10 episodes in season 3. I like it, ..
Sal I am very self conscious in gym too. I refuse to pay money to feel uncomfortable. There are muscle packed people who are showing off like hell , Or very loud bunch of woman who come there to gossip eh,
I hate gym
Ponder I hope it will pass soon, This is a thing about gym, I always pushed myself too much and ended with pulled muscles eh
It's a hard take on all sides I guess. I mean It's good to see people happy with what they do, but then another when seeing the negative impact, or the true cost of what many cultural and self centered pursuits can have. In this respect, I've been bitten on many sides of the fence. I just like connecting with real people. I care less about the way you look Sal or how what age Dahila is. Gender is even less of an issue when meeting real people. You can be both at once and I'll still care less.
SCI-FI 2018
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As an avid Sci-Fi fan from way back ... I just can't help but feel the Sci-Fi genre has never been in so much disarray.
Thanks for telling me about Counterpart D. I have SBS on demand via my smart tv. I singed up just so I can start watching Counterpart. TY.
I apologize for my earlier dissing on the spaceship horror series you linked. I am fully bias given the butchering done to Star Trek. If not for that, I may very well be open to seeing what you see. I admit my walls are up.
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Regarding my Neck ... eeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I really messed it up. I am sure it's been stress build up over time + my bad habits. The massage really helped, but I still can't move my head to the left very much and find eating a little hard. I decided to make appointment with GP. This is exactly the kind of pain it takes for me to allow myself to be checked out. The lump in the back of my neck is now freaking me out. I am not one for health anxiety ... but now hope that is all it is. The lump feels like a large pussy cyst deep within my skin. If I knew I could I would ask Lisa to syringe it. Instead ... I go to doctor. I think its been with me for some time - I often wake up with bung shoulders ... but lately the back neck area has been problematic.
It's been suggested that I gear my weight workouts towards long ranged movements and steer away from the shorter pumping activities associated with body building. I agree and say good riddance. That said, core movements may require short rang activity countered with long stretches. I will have to have another chat with the PT before embarking on whatever routine.
Hopefully I can turn my head without too much pain tomorrow and be able to sleep.
For now I go watch some of the garbage on Netflix. I'll save Counterpart for when my other half gets home.
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Wow, what a trip that was. I woke up in excruciating pain barely able to get out of bed. I somehow managed but that time without an anxiety attack. I made my way to the toiled to relieve myself like I do most times I wake up during the night. Getting back into bed was almost as painful as when I awoke. I was once gain in executioner pain no sooner than I was able to lay flat on my back. Feeling dizzy I knew this would not do. I attempted to get back out of bed but was now feeling paralyzed across the back of my shoulder and up neck with nausea quickly welling up. I was uncertain if it was the pain or the anxiety attack spurred on as I contemplated the impact this might have on my breathing if I was able to go back to sleep.
Laying there like that getting dizzier by the second and now fully in a state of pain and anxiety, I was banging on the wall plus yelling to no avail. My wife was in another under the influence of her meds. I figure it must of been the flailing up against the wall that somehow I got enough blood flow into my neck were I was finally able to flip on my side, then up push myself up and slide out of bed. I got to my feet and staggered into the hallway, burst into my wife's room looking like the Hunchback of Notre Dame. She's like "WTF!"
I'm like "What fucking drugs are you on, did you not hear me??? I've been yelling out and banging on the wall!" Regrettably I did not have the hindsight nor composure I do now. I later thanked my poor wife for getting up and then later talking me out of going to the hospital. I did query whether that decision was based more on the fact of how sleepy she felt Vs my need. As always my wife was correct in her detailed response regarding the fact that I was still breathing and moving. We talked about the dismissive way the hospital treats humans + my predisposition in dealing with such things; this being more my take of course. Fact is, I already had a doctors appointment booked for this afternoon. A long way off. I talked my wife into coming along to that. I'm going to need drugs!!! What's a bet that when the time finally comes that when I start requesting the use of drugs, the doctor will then resists, instead telling me to take a headache pill.
SIGH ... I can at least move my neck slightly, sit here and type this. I guess that is something. I think I make a cup of tea. The only thing we had I could take was phenergan. It's better than nothing.
Yep sir re, in times like these I will take the drugs.
Man ... I am in so much fucking pain!!! That knot feels more like a fluid sack that's seemingly larger than the last time I felt it. My anxiety condition is not helping. I fear going back to sleep so will just sit in the oversize recliner that's not ergonomically designed for a guy like me. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oh I am sorry to hear what happened, I hope the doc will help you. It seems like the one I am getting that can not lift my head, In my situation it is inflammation on the trapezius, eh. you must be in awful pain cause you never complain , Did you try to put some ice cubes no eyes on the spot? The lump in neck maybe just nodes, I hope you are better and will post some update
I think my hating of gym maybe connected to mine social anxiety
Thank you for that posting, was nice to read something like that for a change, people are very judgmental where I reside sad to say which is another reason I keep to myself. I don't allow people to know much about me, I stay well guarded. I'm just very ordinary person anyway, dress very ordinary and I'm not a loud personality (not anymore anyway). I'm the same, its the heart that counts not the exterior.
I hope you feel better and it will pass.
I agree Dahila, I think it could be connected to social anxiety. I have forgotten how to act around people it seems. I've been told I have a flat affect.
Sal I have to fight everytime with myself when other people involved. I am preparing Xmas Eve supper and dreading the reunion. I have a difficulties to take more than one person at the time.eh.....
Pain In The Neck Update: has now been upgraded to A LUMP IN THE NECK I'm still in a lot of pain, but feeling a little better. I can move my neck some more but still limited in a few places. I went to see the GP who then sent me for an ultra sound. The young girl doing the ultrasound went to get her superior. I was then informed he would be recommending the GP refer me on for an MRI. Long story short, "don't worry, if its cancer I am sure it wont be the serious kind." Something to that effect. Not sure how I feel about that. It's one of those episodes you just have to wait. Such a vague prognosis of cancer challenges my commiseration with you D, regarding our discussions where we talk about counting the days till one's end. Other than my grandson coming to mind, I fear less the notion of dying compared to that of the pain. I was prescribed panadeine forte / codeine for the pain. I challenged the doctor on that because I wanted something consider to be a muscle relaxant. Lisa was not happy about me challenging the doctor as this particular doctor is also my my wife's doctor. In the end the panadeine forte was good enough. I'm not a good patient at the best of times, let alone when I am in pain and feeling nauseous.
I struggle to understand my doctor as although she speaks English, her Indian accent is very strong and she also speaks extremely fast. Not good for my anxiety and hearing problems. Unfortunately the medical clinic I go to has no English accented individuals. I would seek out a doctor that is easier to understand, however easily understood doctors with an English accent, all seem to be relegated as private only doctors. Go figure. It would be nice to actually understand what the doctor is saying. Perhaps I should just get them to text me like we do in FB D. I know you always keep saying how thick your accent is. That said, I bet your easier to understand compared to a heavy accented Indian speaking faster than escape velocity. God bless the poor dears soul. Meh. lol
It's just not the Indian doctor that I don't understand ... all of the people I crossed paths with yesterday treated me like a number (including the ones I actually understood), all of them talking at break neck speeds. If not for my grandson, "Fuck the pain ... beam me up scotty!!!"
Like I said ... I'm not a 'good' patient. (what the fuck is a 'good' patient anyways?)
Update completed ... moving on:
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SOCIAL PHOBIA: My Take is all.
Hi guys, appreciate the topic of social phobia. It is listed as one of many labels.
1st I attempt a walk. Feeling a little stiff and groggy.
Back later.
Hi D, do not worry, do you remember when the my mammograms were screwed up> It took so long and I have to go for a test once a year , to keep an eye on it. It maybe a cyst, for us is difficult not to worry, worry is our middle name,
I am scared of pain too,
My doc is young (I think 35 years) Canadian doctor, his accent is canadian no problem to understand him if he remembers to slow down. I constantly asking to slow down, my hearing aids can catch the sound when someone is looking at me and he does, so I also help myself with lip reading, I had not idea I can read the lips. You probably can too. Our body justifying to hearing loss give us something.
Is it long time till MRI? Is that lump hard? Just remember when you have onset of sharp pain it is usually not cancer. Cancer tend to come slowly with pain. Thank you for the update on it,
i am not good patient either , before I fill script I always check the meds sites for info .....
Yes I remember. Thanks for the extra information. Is hard to keep optimistic when in a lot of pain.
Thanks for the boost :)