Hey Trin!!
Yes, the weather was crappy enough to cause my youngest to spin, crash, burn,...and bend the suspension system too!! YAY!!!... I have to get more new parts for her Demo Derby car now....yippee.... :(
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Hey Trin!!
Yes, the weather was crappy enough to cause my youngest to spin, crash, burn,...and bend the suspension system too!! YAY!!!... I have to get more new parts for her Demo Derby car now....yippee.... :(
I'm glad to hear it has worked so well for you.Quote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
If anyone tries to prescribe me APs again I'll probably hit them, repeatedly :p
Despite the fact the newer atypical APs are much safer than the old typical ones, they are still potentially very nasty drugs.
Smack em up side the head!!....LOL!!! :)
Car is back on the road, ready for next wreck. YAY!!! :D
Oh no.....that is terrible...lol at demo Derby car........ Im sure you guys have it much worse out there weather wize. ...but I swear my SAD is in full swing. ......im not feeling very motivated to do anything at all. I have to cook lunch pretty soon so I can sit and watch the playoffs in a bit and im not even motivated to do that. My husband is putting in requests......buffalo and bbq wings.Quote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
She crashed into something every other week!!..The SAD thing is something I know all to well about too, this weather makes me groggy and down...
I hope your day gets better and you can find some energy Trin! ....
E_Man..:)
Goodness....you need to get her a driving course..........pronto! To save your pockets in the long run!!!!!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
I finally found the energy to make some killer chicken wings.. honey bbq and the second batch was chipotle.
Are you into football? Are you watching the playoffs? Im cheering for the Broncos.
Hey E-Man Sorry to hear of the many harsh adversities life has thrown at you, but just wanted to say you're an inspiration. You must have a hell of a lot of strength is all I can say :)
No, no she already have it. She needs to put her phone away when she is driving. Somehow we got a new trend; young people text when they are driving, it is a disaster, so many lifes lost because of stupid smart phones...Quote:
Originally Posted by trinidiva
Yeah, it definitely is a huge problem. ...texting and driving.....I even see the cops on their phones when im driving by...
@ Trin, she had been driving since she was 14 so you'd think she'd be great at it!! NOPE!!..I'm really glad that you found some energy too (now share where cuz I need some too please???)... I like the Broncos to win it all!! Peyton played here, before he left for Denver..
@Issy, Thank you so much for thinking of me! I am thinking of you too friend...life loves to throw stuff at me allll thhee timmeee...That explains my screen name. (Endure On Man)....Enduronman... :)
Have a great upcoming week friends!..:)
They sayyyyy that they were just driving along, and all the sudden...the car spins around 3 times and hits a ditch???...BBAAAHAA!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Dahila
I'm just glad that they're ok,..Lion Cub wasn't shook up, she was mad because she wanted to go somewhere...LOL!
Yes, doing the SAME thing we're told not to do....:(Quote:
Originally Posted by trinidiva
I have no idea where the burst of energy came from.....but everything turned out great and right on time for me to see the Broncos win. Im really a die hard Packers fan but since they got knocked out...I decided to cheer for Broncos. Now I will be cheering for San Fran in the next playoff game.Quote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
Yes, you dont know how many times ive seen police officers cruising by while on their cell phones.......hmmm.......
Sucked that Aaron Rodgers got injured. Pack were building momentum before that freak Chicago game. Threw them out of sorts. I think a Green Bay with momentum would have beaten 49ers the way that game wentQuote:
Originally Posted by trinidiva
P.s. Seattle are gonna crush San Fran!!
Eman - least ya'll have a kick ass basketball team this year.
We do?????Quote:
Originally Posted by jessed03
Lil Bruh, You think I got a spare minute to pay attention to sports????....Mmm NO!!! LMAO!!
E-Man...:)
(sigh)
1. Picked up my oldest daughter for the Doc's visit...
2. She wanted to "tell stories" about drama crap and her younger sis.
3. She "thinks" that she is smoking meth..awesome.....
4. I just listened to all the BS all the way to the office and all the way back too..34 miles.
5. The doc did put her on abilify, and her RLS has already stopped too..weird how fast a (dopamine agonist) helps that so quickly...
6. I will wait to see what the rest of this day has in store..visit was pretty good however and she is still methadone free too. Day #18. HOORAYY!!!!.....
Have a great day all...:)
Great news E-Man.
That abilify must be some awesome stuff. Y'all getting more snow? We're fixin to get hammered a little or so they say. 48 degrees today though. Awesome day!
Peace Bro (that's nut my dug). LOL still kickin that around in the old melon.
I find it curious that an AP would be used for RLS.Quote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
One of the common side effects of APs like Abilify is Akathisia which is like really bad RLS. Kind of ironic that it can cure & cause much the same thing. :p
If it works though, why question it! :)
Congrats Frankie,
That is awesome!! So, so proud, and look how far you have come, such a good thing. :) Peace
Oh, okay sorry about that Frankie. I'll try again. ;) Peace Keep up the good work! This is great news.
I'm loving the sports talk, someone should start a thread for it if it doesn't annoy people possibly straying far from the anxiety theme
Frankie, that is fantastic! Interesting that you say that you were effectively doing things to block triggers. What are your triggers for your anxiety when you are out walking?Quote:
Originally Posted by frankiecfc
Yay Frankie! Makes perfect sense. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by frankiecfc
So, to clarify. Moving further away from a bathroom is a trigger. The fear suggestion that comes to your mind is, "If I get too far from the bathroom, I will lose control of myself." The thought is not the trigger. The thought is a fear suggestion that results from the trigger of walking further away from a bathroom. One way to overcome this is by countering the fear suggestion. So I imagine you did something to make yourself feel safe that if a problem happened, you were prepared. Either that, or you just toughed it out and made it okay. :)
That seems to be exactly what you did with the hill. You felt the trigger of the increased heart rate and heavy chest, and rather than let it suggest fear to your mind that you were having a heart attack (or a panic attack), you countered the suggestion by telling yourself it is all normal feelings for walking up a hill. And it worked. :)
Controlling your suggestion response. This can be very effective in breaking the anxiety cycle. Chapter 2. :)
Checking in E-Man... Hope all is well. Everything is sat on my end.
Ok dear forum friends,..here's what is going on and why you haven't seen me much..
First off, all these damn test and procedures to try and figure out why I can hardly walk. My legs feel like they're being squeezed by something every friggin day. Like I'm a damn mummy. Just the legs (for now) and been like this for 14 fuggin months. I have medications, they help, but there has to be a cause or reason. Hence=test after test.
I have ANOTHER friggin MRI tomorrow morning at 630am..the spine. There may be spinal damage from this disease and or pinched nerves. Then I have to have something called an EMG on the 27th. Tiny needles will be stuck in my legs with electrodes attached to see electrical malfunctions I guess. Like acupuncture with wires. Yay...
Then a Neurosurgeon on the 28th, to read all this s**t and tell me what's next or if there's nothing that they can do. I've already had physical therapy for my neck, then maybe I'll have therapy on my legs. I just don't really know..I can't stand for more than 10 mins without my legs killing me, get in and out of the damn car, climb the stairs, but used to be able to do anything and lift tons of weight. It still makes no sense to me.
Second off, my oldest daughter was a drug addict. She quit taking (methadone) after 2 solid years..but, there's a catch. She replaced it with something else I believe (crystal meth)..She's dropping weight fast, and I see and sense other things going on too. Just when I thought she had found her inner strengths, I see she just chose something else completely f**kin stupid instead..plus, she adds extra "drama" into my life now too. I don't know what to believe when she tells me stories. Most of the stories are about her younger sis that is in my home. About drugs. That's ALLLLLLLLL she talks about....and not the LEGAL ones that I take, the other ones...it's draining me.
Then, lastnight. I get a call from the Doctors office to speak to me about lion cub..(17)..They say that they need her to come in for a drug test because something strange popped up in her system? So, for a few hours..I am freaking the f**k out about what it could be? She saw the Doc on the 20th, 1 day after going to a damn dentists office to have a filling done, and they gave her VALIUM!! I even took the f**kin bottle out there with us on the 20th, showed the nurse, showed the Doc, they both looked at it,,,,but TOOK NO F**KIN NOTES ABOUT IT!!!..That's what was "in her system"...Son of a beyotch! So, I had to take her out there today for a surprise drug screen, because of something that I tried to make them aware of and prevent on December fuggin 20th!!!....Lion cub was not happy, nor kind to the RN that didn't (DO HER JOB)!!!......
Between allllll this shit...I'm trying to hang in there and hang in here too.....
Now you know!!
Like my new signature???? It's from a song that you would all HATE!!! LMAO!!...
(sigh)...
E-Man...:)
Keep strong E-man!! Were all here for when you need to get something off your chest just like you are always here for us!!! Never lose sight of how lovely and kind you are to everyone on here because I know you have really helped me on my journey through anxiety and I bet a lot of other people can say that too!! You really deserve to have it easy because you have been through soo much.. I look up to you (not just because i'm 5ft tall) because although you have been through/going through a lot your still your happy bubbly self and you still bring so much fun and laughter to the forum!!! Stay strong pupa lion!!
Anywayyyy… enough of the soppy crap hahhahaa!!! THE SONG!! I forgot, i'm gonna listen to it now!!
Ash xx
Thank you Ashlee...that was very kind, very powerful. Blessings your way for being so strong!! (even at 5')....LOL!
I am realllllyyyyy trying to stay on the "road" if you know what I mean now...
E-Man...:)
Sorry to hear you're going through it! E-man such a shit that you have so many things to deal with at once.
Try and keep strong we all need you and your great support and advice.
Cully
BUT you manage to stay positive even with everything going on. I wish I could be that way. Not that I'm negative all the time but the bad things always manage to creep into my head and stay there for awhile. I look too far into the future instead of living each day as it comes. I need to learn how to do this :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
Hey EMan oh you have got so much on your mind right now,your strong and you can get through this,we are all here for you,come on here and have a vent let it all outQuote:
Originally Posted by Enduronman
Hugs to you
Hugs for you :-)Quote:
Originally Posted by em1
Oh thanks :)Quote:
Originally Posted by John_Mark
Keep strong big bro. I'm building the machine here cos of your help, you'll get it sorted there. You have the determination and the patience.
Yeah he is stong and positive for us, so sending the hugs:)Quote:
Originally Posted by jessed03
You got all of us here for support, E-man.. if anyone can stay strong, it's you.. You're not called Endure on Man for nothing! Although sometimes, a break from adversity would be great.. More hugs to you! :)
That sucks E man. Seeing your kids falling into a bad sort is heartbreaking. I feel for you
Also about all the shit you have to get done
If I look for some solace, I see that the doctors are determined to find what is going on based on all the tests
I know the are a nuisance and annoying, but it am glad they are doing their due diligence.
Soon you'll be back lifting tons of shit again if they have their way
Hey Eman! Glad to see you are still in the mode. Have you ever taken Lion Cub for a ride, pointed at a homeless woman on the street, and said, "You do realize that while I am alive, you have it easy, but when I die, you will get nothing because I have nothing. That is gonna be you when I die, unless you get your act together and stop the drugs."
I really appreciate all this support, more then my words could even express. You're all true friends, truly compassionate, truly caring,..
I am reallllly being stretched and pushed to the edges of sanity with these health issues, the girls, and things that all come along with being disabled too.
All I have to do tomorrow is an MRI at 7am, and then the rest of the weekend is "mind clearing" time I hope...Then start the process again on Monday.
I hope to get back here and spend some time with you all too..alot of people still in need out there I know.
I will get these issues resolved, just wish it didn't take years to figure out.
Many, many blessings to you all!...
E-Man..:)