Summer & Daytime Anxiety (Depression?)

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10-24-2015, 01:23 AM
DiMENSiON

Summer & Daytime Anxiety (Depression?)

Hi everyone :)

I just signed up on this forums and it feels good to become part of a big community where alikes can share their experiences. I will tell you about my situation.

Ever since childhood I saw myself as an introvert and avoided social interactions as much as I could. My teachers from my early school years, always told my parents that I am too silent and never active in class discussions. But you know, I liked to be in a position where I observe rather than interact and thought it always was a matter of introversion and lack of social skills. In high school I was in a Computer Programming class and I kind of felt comfortable with being around people with same avoidance of social situations. Most of the times, I studied late hours at home and it felt as if I was learning better when I was alone in the dark. Noticing this really paid off and I graduated high school with top grades.

The years past and I moved to a much warmer location for higher education studies. I saw this an opportunity for me to become a different person and maybe I could overcome my avoidance of social interactions. As I studied Business Administration; I had Behavioral Science classes focusing on Learning & Personality Development and started to become more aware of my situation. I started to take notes about how I felt from time to time and noticed that I mostly suffered from anxiety during summer and daytime. When anxiety takes control, I feel like a different person. My body feels worked-up, my memory is taking a hit and so does my cognitive skills. Searching on the internet made me find the term "brain fog" and it describes my condition perfectly. I remember my classes at driving school and how badly I screwed up from time to time when my brain went blank and how stupid I felt, it all made sense now.

Since last summer, I have got a daytime job as a manager and it feels worse than ever. Now, I am not as flexible as in school and have to perform constantly. Worst of all is that I work daytime and during summers I feel worthless. Not can I focus, nor can I perform. I feel anxious constantly and this keeps me from learning and doing some real work. Even a phone call is enough to make bells go off. The feeling of not being able to perform, makes it even worse and I can not wait to go home and relax. Also, another thing I have noticed is that I am avoiding conflicts and it feels like the world has come to an end after I have argued with someone or I have done something bad in general.

Now when the summer and its sunny days are over, I finally begin to feel normal again. My self-esteem recovers and I do not feel like I want to avoid social interactions. Is anyone else out there feeling the same? Do you have any tricks to overcome or at least minimize the symptoms?
10-24-2015, 06:44 AM
Anne1221

Most people are the opposite, as evidence of how many people have Seasonal Disorder. I am the opposite. I prefer the summer and sunny day.
10-24-2015, 07:09 AM
NixonRulz

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Originally Posted by Anne1221

Most people are the opposite, as evidence of how many people have Seasonal Disorder. I am the opposite. I prefer the summer and sunny day.

I am much the same way. I really don't get seasonal depression but I don't like the cold.

The leaves are coming off of the trees now and that is just a segway into winter. Yuck

I will be in Florida someday soon I hope. Fishing the gulf year round!
10-26-2015, 11:55 PM
Jessicaleanne1992

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Originally Posted by DiMENSiON

Hi everyone :)

I just signed up on this forums and it feels good to become part of a big community where alikes can share their experiences. I will tell you about my situation.

Ever since childhood I saw myself as an introvert and avoided social interactions as much as I could. My teachers from my early school years, always told my parents that I am too silent and never active in class discussions. But you know, I liked to be in a position where I observe rather than interact and thought it always was a matter of introversion and lack of social skills. In high school I was in a Computer Programming class and I kind of felt comfortable with being around people with same avoidance of social situations. Most of the times, I studied late hours at home and it felt as if I was learning better when I was alone in the dark. Noticing this really paid off and I graduated high school with top grades.

The years past and I moved to a much warmer location for higher education studies. I saw this an opportunity for me to become a different person and maybe I could overcome my avoidance of social interactions. As I studied Business Administration; I had Behavioral Science classes focusing on Learning & Personality Development and started to become more aware of my situation. I started to take notes about how I felt from time to time and noticed that I mostly suffered from anxiety during summer and daytime. When anxiety takes control, I feel like a different person. My body feels worked-up, my memory is taking a hit and so does my cognitive skills. Searching on the internet made me find the term "brain fog" and it describes my condition perfectly. I remember my classes at driving school and how badly I screwed up from time to time when my brain went blank and how stupid I felt, it all made sense now.

Since last summer, I have got a daytime job as a manager and it feels worse than ever. Now, I am not as flexible as in school and have to perform constantly. Worst of all is that I work daytime and during summers I feel worthless. Not can I focus, nor can I perform. I feel anxious constantly and this keeps me from learning and doing some real work. Even a phone call is enough to make bells go off. The feeling of not being able to perform, makes it even worse and I can not wait to go home and relax. Also, another thing I have noticed is that I am avoiding conflicts and it feels like the world has come to an end after I have argued with someone or I have done something bad in general.

Now when the summer and its sunny days are over, I finally begin to feel normal again. My self-esteem recovers and I do not feel like I want to avoid social interactions. Is anyone else out there feeling the same? Do you have any tricks to overcome or at least minimize the symptoms?

I feel the same way as you. In the summer I just hate to go out. It's oppressively hot and nothing is enjoyable. The sun is so bright it's like there's no shelter. It's too much. I relax so much during fall and winter.