Originally Posted by
johnsmoot6
I'm a bit confused as to weather what I'm experiencing is a phobia, gaiety disorder, COD or maybe just bad habits or
behaviors I've developed over the years.
As a kid I started to develop a fear of being in situations where I couldn't escape from egg stuck in an elevator but
I've looked at phobias like agoraphobia, claustrophobia and Claustrophobia but I don't fear confined spaces or
Crowed places I only fear being trapped and knowing that I can never escape. I don't mind going in lifts It's just the
loss of control and not being able to escape when you enter one that I fear.
I don't think its a control thing because I'm fine with being driven by someone and not being in control of the car
as I know I could easily get out, unlike a plane where I know there is no escape. I also associate death
with this phobia, I feel that after death I will still be conscious but in some sort of void unable to cease just in
nothingness forever, so its not really death I fear but again being in a situation that I can't escape from and have
no control over. Also growing up I had a fear of
developing a terminal disease as I associated this with death and the void scenario but
Also having someone tell me I'm going to die would put me in a situation that I could not escape from, this is
The same reason I fear situations that aren't assisted with death like becoming appraised or going to prison
Because I can't escape and have no control that situation.
The reason that I'm leaning towards it being a phobia is that
I'm fine when I don't experience anything that might result in me getting trapped, it's not something that
affects me daily like general anxiety, also I don't really have obsessive thoughts that come into my mind, I only
Have them when I know I'm going to have to face a situation that might cause me to become trapped. I did adopt
some COD rituals I guess to try to help me avoid these situations egg tapping something so many times so that I didn't
get cancer, but I don't do theses anymore because I know
they don't do anything, I mean I guess I have touch of COD as I do like to go back and check things like ovens
Taps to see if they're turned off but this doesn't really hold me back from doing thighs like my fear/phobia of being
trapped and not being in control. I would just like to understand what this phobia is (if It is one) and
if anyone else has had similar experiences.
Sorry if its a bit hard to read, I'm finding it hard to describe.
