I think I'm agoraphobic.

Hi, I'm 18 years old and my great-grandmother had agoraphobia so bad that she couldn't even step outside. My mom had some anxiety too. The reason why I just signed up for this site is because I need an opinion.

I was diagnosed with GAD a few years ago already. The thing is, I've always had a hard time with school. I'm autistic on top of anxious so I often had "tantrums" even later on.

When I was younger, I just didn't like school. But, after puberty (around 7th grade), I started feeling sick to my stomach every morning just to go and had daily panic attacks.

Soon, I was missing a lot of days. Then, high school became a nightmare. It's been a struggle just to get out of bed and now I'm a senior and I've been homeschooling myself because I just can't be there.

At some point, going out in general has gotten harder. I hate, hate, hate bridges. Just so you know. But, I sort of get bored at home. That's how it starts. Then, I go somewhere like a store, and within a short while, I just HAVE to go home. I end up feeling cruddy all day afterwards.

My family was so fed up with me flipping out everyday to go to school that they put me in an all day therapy program. I liked it at first, but now I feel so nervous to be there and can't wait to go home.

I'm afraid I'll never be able to work, and I really want to. I got into 17 colleges, but my parents said I can't go at all now. I have to turn down a full scholarship and like 14 partial scholarships. I'm just so afraid. I feel like lying in bed forever and never getting up.

At this point, I feel like I'm in a daze. My mother had a hard time with high school, but I can hardly eat or sleep at the thought of going somewhere for more than 1-2 hours at a time. I'm so disappointed in myself.