Perpetual thoughts of death.

I seriously hate it when my mind just goes crazy and thinks of all the worst things. I think about death about other people and me. Like wondering thoughts of how my relatives would die, how I would die... and it's just the worst. Even when I'm at a party, the movies, in the car, etc, I just think of what could happen that could cause death. And it would go on. It's not just one thought and that's it. It'll just continue on, one thought about death after another. It's disturbing.

Watching that DVD, The Secret, doesn't help; because of how they talk about the Law of Attraction and I'm freaking out that I'm attracting death, because I just think about it all the time.

can anyone relate?

I think about this 24/7. Mainly myself dying. And now I feel like I'm literally dying. I've thought this for 11 months straight

I've thought about it but strangly I'm not afraid of dying ....its Funny though during a panic attack I am afraid of the pain but not dying

I think about this a lot too. I am hyper aware of the fragile nature of existence and how people can literally die from one second to the next. Sometimes I wonder how anyone can live without worrying about that!! Life is so fragile and there are so many dangers.......I did talk to a therapist about this and her take on it was that I could turn my awareness of the fragility of existence into something positive by being determined to appreciate every moment that I'm alive. That makes sense, but it's hard to do!!! I do try and do that when my mortality fears get really, really bad. For example, I say to myself that right now, this second I am alive, and the people I love are alive right now, this second. I don't know what is going to happen in the next hour, but right now, I am alive. And so I try to just go moment to moment. There is definitely a lot to be said for trying to live in the moment, because the moment is all we have. Like I said, I know this is way easier said than done though!!

Existential crisis. The brain is trying and failing to process it's own demise. I think it's at the core of our anxiety. It knows it is going to die, but fights against it, so it turns into an endless loop of death fear and heightened panic awareness. I think the only solution is to accept and find some peace with it. Maybe you have faith in an afterlife. If so, death is merely a doorway to a new world. If you are an atheist, think of it as taking a very very long nap. We've got to process it and accept it, though, or this torture will never end. Our brains will just keep repeating if we don't, like a broken record.

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Originally Posted by autumnbee123

I think about this 24/7. Mainly myself dying. And now I feel like I'm literally dying. I've thought this for 11 months straight

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Yea, I've been having these thoughts for quite a long time now also, but every time I think it, I have to reassure myself that I am a healthy young women with a good life and that death is part of life. Try and end your negative thoughts with positives :)

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Originally Posted by MissyTone

I've thought about it but strangly I'm not afraid of dying ....its Funny though during a panic attack I am afraid of the pain but not dying

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The thing that I'm worried about dying are two things: 1, leaving my loved ones and especially my son and my boyfriend. Like not being there for them. I'd hate to leave them. And 2, like HOW I would die. It would be ideal to go in my sleep. But I hate that I even have that preference... haha. I'm the same about panic attacks. I'm more worried about the pain getting worst.

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Originally Posted by tailspin

I think about this a lot too. I am hyper aware of the fragile nature of existence and how people can literally die from one second to the next. Sometimes I wonder how anyone can live without worrying about that!! Life is so fragile and there are so many dangers.......I did talk to a therapist about this and her take on it was that I could turn my awareness of the fragility of existence into something positive by being determined to appreciate every moment that I'm alive. That makes sense, but it's hard to do!!! I do try and do that when my mortality fears get really, really bad. For example, I say to myself that right now, this second I am alive, and the people I love are alive right now, this second. I don't know what is going to happen in the next hour, but right now, I am alive. And so I try to just go moment to moment. There is definitely a lot to be said for trying to live in the moment, because the moment is all we have. Like I said, I know this is way easier said than done though!!

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I agree! I told my counselor that it's much easier for my thoughts to think negatively than positively. Then she tells me to just train my mind. That's what I've been doing. But I still go that way. I'm my worst enemy.

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Originally Posted by Cobra

Existential crisis. The brain is trying and failing to process it's own demise. I think it's at the core of our anxiety. It knows it is going to die, but fights against it, so it turns into an endless loop of death fear and heightened panic awareness. I think the only solution is to accept and find some peace with it. Maybe you have faith in an afterlife. If so, death is merely a doorway to a new world. If you are an atheist, think of it as taking a very very long nap. We've got to process it and accept it, though, or this torture will never end. Our brains will just keep repeating if we don't, like a broken record.

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Yea, I know. It'll take time. I'm a 7th day adventist. But, I haven't been... would I say practicing? or living as an adventist. They don't believe in after life. They believe in the second coming. Either way, I'm sad about leaving loved ones. :(

I'm not healthy at all though. At least I don't feel like it. At all. I feel like I'm wasting away