A mess, but not the kind that can't be fixed.

Hi, I'm 19 and I live in a country the generosity of you have only heard about at most - Latvia. I've been dealing with severe anxiety attacks for most of my adolescence, but I've been diagnosed only very recently - about year and a half ago. Ever since treatment started(immediately after the diagnosis) I've gone so much better. And for a while I even thought I was 100% cured and had gotten rid of it. Until I started my first job last summer. At first I thought it was a normal human reaction - my first job ever, bunch of new people, new things that I had to learn, etc. But after a few months, somewhere around autumn and the end of the winter, my attacks came back. And they occurred during the evenings and specifically only on working days. I realized that I’m still oversensitive to meeting new people and getting along with them. I've been working there for more than a half year, but I still feel like a newbie for most of the time. Don’t get me wrong – I love the job and my colleagues. It’s just sometimes I try to push myself way too much.

And yet – considering the fact that a year ago I could barely walk out of my room without feeling judged, my palms getting sweaty, feeling like I’m gonna throw up my breakfast, lunch, the lunch of the previous day, my lungs, my heart, every other inside parts – I can definitely say I’m a lot better.

Isn't Lativa just south of New Jersey? : )

You sound like many people that feel better and believe you are cured

Once you have anxiety attacks, you can just become prone to them because you become sensitized.

And that is completely normal.

Lots of good posts on here that are similar

[QUOTE=NixonRulz;89983]Isn't Lativa just south of New Jersey? : )

Nope, it's a small country in Europe, the Baltic sea shore. :)

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Originally Posted by Una B

Hi, I'm 19 and I live in a country the generosity of you have only heard about at most - Latvia. I've been dealing with severe anxiety attacks for most of my adolescence, but I've been diagnosed only very recently - about year and a half ago. Ever since treatment started(immediately after the diagnosis) I've gone so much better. And for a while I even thought I was 100% cured and had gotten rid of it. Until I started my first job last summer. At first I thought it was a normal human reaction - my first job ever, bunch of new people, new things that I had to learn, etc. But after a few months, somewhere around autumn and the end of the winter, my attacks came back. And they occurred during the evenings and specifically only on working days. I realized that I’m still oversensitive to meeting new people and getting along with them. I've been working there for more than a half year, but I still feel like a newbie for most of the time. Don’t get me wrong – I love the job and my colleagues. It’s just sometimes I try to push myself way too much.

And yet – considering the fact that a year ago I could barely walk out of my room without feeling judged, my palms getting sweaty, feeling like I’m gonna throw up my breakfast, lunch, the lunch of the previous day, my lungs, my heart, every other inside parts – I can definitely say I’m a lot better.

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Why do you feel like that , you have. Any past events that make you feel like that

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Originally Posted by Hidalgo21

Why do you feel like that , you have. Any past events that make you feel like that

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I can't get over my fear of like 99.9999% of human population. It's like I feel hyper-judged nonstop.

Past few months I've been getting anxiety on working evenings. Mostly their at the same time. It starts as simply being deeply annoyed by my computer, then it's like I am super sensitive to every little noise, to anyone passing by, any client message etc. And then the headache, chest pain and weird breathing starts and I feel like I'm close to tears and vomiting. Sometimes I feel like I'm just getting anxious because I'm afraid of getting anxious - by which I mean, I just see the time and feel like "shit, what if it happens now?". It's like I scare myself.

For the past 2-3 weeks I haven't got any attacks, so I feel a lot better. :)

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Originally Posted by Una B

I can't get over my fear of like 99.9999% of human population. It's like I feel hyper-judged nonstop.

Past few months I've been getting anxiety on working evenings. Mostly their at the same time. It starts as simply being deeply annoyed by my computer, then it's like I am super sensitive to every little noise, to anyone passing by, any client message etc. And then the headache, chest pain and weird breathing starts and I feel like I'm close to tears and vomiting. Sometimes I feel like I'm just getting anxious because I'm afraid of getting anxious - by which I mean, I just see the time and feel like "shit, what if it happens now?". It's like I scare myself.

For the past 2-3 weeks I haven't got any attacks, so I feel a lot better. :)

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Oohhhh wow love , I bet is really hard , I when I feel bad I get really anxious and don't want to talk to anyone , do you take any med?

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Oohhhh wow love , I bet is really hard , I when I feel bad I get really anxious and don't want to talk to anyone , do you take any med?

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I stopped taking meds around the end of last spring. So, no, I don't take any now. I'm scared to take them, because I remember that the first month I started taking them I was constantly sleepy, I couldn't concentrate on anything, always feeling dizzy. For the first 2 weeks I even fell asleep at 8 pm. So I don't really want it to affect my job, which requires constant concentration and creativity. Any suggestions?

My Mom was Lithuanian so I know that area...on the map anyway.:(
Did all this restart sometime after stopping the med? If so consider restarting the same med regime for a longer period. It's related(probably) from going into the work place and that life transition. Hang with it and you get accustomed to it all in time I think. Alankay

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My Mom was Lithuanian so I know that area...on the map anyway.:(
Did all this restart sometime after stopping the med? If so consider restarting the same med regime for a longer period. It's related(probably) from going into the work place and that life transition. Hang with it and you get accustomed to it all in time I think. Alankay

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Yes, Lithuania is one of our close "neighbors". :)
Hey, no, the recent anxiety attacks started around autumn/winter, so it was months after quitting meds. But seems like the past 2-3 weeks it's fine. I mean, I do get the sort of "over-sensitive reaction to normal things", but I wouldn't call them attacks. But even so, I shouldn't be so stressed when more than a half year has passed since I've been working here. Hope I manage to go through this on my own. But I still keep in mind that there's a chance I might need meds to get over this.