Date of Birth

February 14, 1977 (47)

About buffydawn

Biography:

Ok here goes.
This is my story.
I am 38 years old. I've always had anxiety tho not sure which i would be clarified under, except social anxiety. I have worked very hard to overcome that. I still get anxious around people but am better at controlling the fear.
A little over two years ago my world was turned upside down. Growing up i was always close to my family (i never kept too many friends), i was especially close to my cousin, she was 7 years younger than me and we spent alot of our time together. Two years ago in September i got a call that she had been taken to the emergency center in the hospital, they said she had overdosed onher medication and that it didn't look good! She was in a coma and her system was shutting down. I spent2 days there with our families, praying that she could survive this. She did not! That was Sunday. The following Thursday my only and best friend on her birthday gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl i had ever seen, 2 days later we laid my cousin to rest forever. She was 29, she has 5 amazing kids and a family who miss her terribly. The following Friday i had taken my youngest son out to dinner because he had been worried about me and my loss, (he also suffers anxiety). Later that night as we all were sleeping the phone rang. On the other end my brother in law, there's been an accident! My best friend and her son had been coming home from Wal-Mart (she was buying baby supplies) the roads were wet and she hit another vehicle head on, she died on impact! Her son broke most of the bones in his face, broke ribs and his back. Today he is strong and so amazing! He spent months in the hospital recovering. He was 5 when the accident happened. The following Saturday we laid her to rest forever. I was lost, i felt it should have been me! I couldn't sleep or eat. I barely functioned. I am here today because of the words of my two sons and someone i have never met! 1 month after these tragedies i found my husband cheating on me and1 month after that i left! That is where my story begins. I am stronger now than ever! Yes i still suffer depression and anxiety but i know i will be ok!

Location:

Pennsylvania

Interests:

reading, writing and my favorite listening to music.