anxiousmess
03-26-2012, 03:29 AM
hiya
i thought i would write about this as it is currently bothering me.
i know that every week i seem to have a new illness. i also know that when i have this 'illness' i strongly believe i do!
alot of the time, i am proved wrong. i understand that anxiety can do this to you.
i also understand that where i'm going with this - could also just be brushed off as anxiety, but please bare with me!
i'm not the kind of anxiety person who goes to the hospital and doctors to reassure myself of my symptoms - simply because i research and learn as much as possible...by the time i've learned all i need to know, the illness tends to leave.
the doctors tend to brush everything off to anxiety, and i feel like a hypercondriac so i don't bother going!
what is bothering me at the minute, is epilepsy. simple partial seizures to be exact.
the reason for this is because of feelings and experiences i have had since i was a child, all link with simple partial seizures!!
all of my unexplained issues, are explained when looking at that!
to top it all of - simple partials can also mimic panic disorders!
i'm not going to go into great detail of the way i've felt when i feel i've had one.
i did however, the other day, think i might aswel try and induce one lol. now i KNOW that is anxiety making me do that.
i also know anxiety is the reason i searched it in the first place!
what i do know though, is that my symptoms do all link with that from both past and present...and my little experiment worked!
now, if i thought for one second i had grand mal seizures - i wouldn't of even attempted inducing. but i know, no damage is done through partials, and alot of people are undiagnosed their whole life as they are so small. this is the only reason i went as far as i did!
i might sound stupid - i don't know!
it was my way of stopping myself and my boyfriend second guessing me!
as i said, my experiment thing worked. i ended up ill, muscles twitching all over my right side, and i ended up curling up on the settee in a ball.
i want to go to the doctors, but i am too scared he is going to brush it off.
my whole point is, how far do you need to go to prove that something isn't anxiety? not only just to yourself, but to others?
i thought i would write about this as it is currently bothering me.
i know that every week i seem to have a new illness. i also know that when i have this 'illness' i strongly believe i do!
alot of the time, i am proved wrong. i understand that anxiety can do this to you.
i also understand that where i'm going with this - could also just be brushed off as anxiety, but please bare with me!
i'm not the kind of anxiety person who goes to the hospital and doctors to reassure myself of my symptoms - simply because i research and learn as much as possible...by the time i've learned all i need to know, the illness tends to leave.
the doctors tend to brush everything off to anxiety, and i feel like a hypercondriac so i don't bother going!
what is bothering me at the minute, is epilepsy. simple partial seizures to be exact.
the reason for this is because of feelings and experiences i have had since i was a child, all link with simple partial seizures!!
all of my unexplained issues, are explained when looking at that!
to top it all of - simple partials can also mimic panic disorders!
i'm not going to go into great detail of the way i've felt when i feel i've had one.
i did however, the other day, think i might aswel try and induce one lol. now i KNOW that is anxiety making me do that.
i also know anxiety is the reason i searched it in the first place!
what i do know though, is that my symptoms do all link with that from both past and present...and my little experiment worked!
now, if i thought for one second i had grand mal seizures - i wouldn't of even attempted inducing. but i know, no damage is done through partials, and alot of people are undiagnosed their whole life as they are so small. this is the only reason i went as far as i did!
i might sound stupid - i don't know!
it was my way of stopping myself and my boyfriend second guessing me!
as i said, my experiment thing worked. i ended up ill, muscles twitching all over my right side, and i ended up curling up on the settee in a ball.
i want to go to the doctors, but i am too scared he is going to brush it off.
my whole point is, how far do you need to go to prove that something isn't anxiety? not only just to yourself, but to others?