emily86
03-20-2012, 06:37 PM
Not sure how to start this off and my be jumbled in relevance of information so bare with me, i would be so grateful of any advice that will help!!!!
So my story starts when I was 15 I had a blackout getting on the bus with friends (it starts with loss of hearing, then my vision goes and sometimes I pass out) I had these rarely so thought nothing of it, in the last ten years I have probably had around 20 of these for very different reasons! Anyway DRIVING....I passed
My test at 19, would never drive anywhere unless I had company, I realized I had low confidence so looked at my life and what was causing me bother..it was my bully of a boyfriend so I knew to sort my life out I ha to rid the bad..... Once I done this my confidence boomed and all of a sudden I was driving on my own everywhere and anywhere and was not bothered in the slightest..
Until February 2011! I was in Cuba where I felt the signs of a blackout, felt light headed, clammy etc so I asked my partner to accompany me outside in the air, then it happened. Hearing went and then my eyesight, I eventually collapsed o the floor and lost consciousness for a few seconds, I sore my doctor who to cut a very long story short sent me for many cardio tests and I now have a device implanted in my chest but the operation had complications and landed me with a collapsed lung and in a bad way. Last February I was driving confidently on my own when I felt that familiar sensation of my hearing going and I panicked as I know the next things is my sight! Since that experience I have not had no more blackouts (thank god) but I'm left with horrendous panic attacks when driving or even the shear thought of having to drive. I know that it's my head playing games and that I'm worried that I may pass out at the wheel but I can't get passed the whole it's in my head thing.
I've had alot of stress in the last year with my job, my operation and having a collapsed lung which I ended up in a serious situation and feel it all plays a part but just don't know what to do and feel so alone and frightened :-(
I'm sorry this is long but needed to put it down. Please anyone who can help I would be so very grateful
So my story starts when I was 15 I had a blackout getting on the bus with friends (it starts with loss of hearing, then my vision goes and sometimes I pass out) I had these rarely so thought nothing of it, in the last ten years I have probably had around 20 of these for very different reasons! Anyway DRIVING....I passed
My test at 19, would never drive anywhere unless I had company, I realized I had low confidence so looked at my life and what was causing me bother..it was my bully of a boyfriend so I knew to sort my life out I ha to rid the bad..... Once I done this my confidence boomed and all of a sudden I was driving on my own everywhere and anywhere and was not bothered in the slightest..
Until February 2011! I was in Cuba where I felt the signs of a blackout, felt light headed, clammy etc so I asked my partner to accompany me outside in the air, then it happened. Hearing went and then my eyesight, I eventually collapsed o the floor and lost consciousness for a few seconds, I sore my doctor who to cut a very long story short sent me for many cardio tests and I now have a device implanted in my chest but the operation had complications and landed me with a collapsed lung and in a bad way. Last February I was driving confidently on my own when I felt that familiar sensation of my hearing going and I panicked as I know the next things is my sight! Since that experience I have not had no more blackouts (thank god) but I'm left with horrendous panic attacks when driving or even the shear thought of having to drive. I know that it's my head playing games and that I'm worried that I may pass out at the wheel but I can't get passed the whole it's in my head thing.
I've had alot of stress in the last year with my job, my operation and having a collapsed lung which I ended up in a serious situation and feel it all plays a part but just don't know what to do and feel so alone and frightened :-(
I'm sorry this is long but needed to put it down. Please anyone who can help I would be so very grateful