New member, old problem.

[mnt20062010]

Hello all. I have been looking through all the anxiety forums, wanting to post. I thought "why not join one called 'anxiety forum'?" Simple enough. So....I am a 35 y.o. man who has been dealing (and I use the word 'dealing' very loosely) with anxiety and depression since my early teen years. The depression at times is debilitating and the anxiety is thru the roof. I have irrational fears and dread. Probably the deepest, darkest, sense of dread that can be imagined. Anybody who hasn't went thru this, doesn't have the vaguest conception of how it feels. Some believe me, some pretend to believe me, and some won't talk to me about it. This is what brought me here...to you. I need to hear from others who have been trapped in this disease and made it thru to the other side. People who not only believe me, but understand. I've been on just about every ssri available, starting back in the old days w/Prozac. I'm currently not taking anything other than Ativan for anxiety (not a big help) because my Dr. is currently running me thru the gamet of drugs for fibromyalgia/neuropothy. My current fears are cancer and the end of the world. I've had these fears for about 15 years now, and at times they take over my life to the point where I'm so afraid, I can't function. Even worse now that all this end time prophecy and 2012 mayan doomsday stuff is on every channel, internet site, magazine etc. So needless to say, I'm not doing too good. I'm looking forward to talking with you guys, so don't hesitate to message me. Thanks, Matt.

[alankay]

Mat, go easy on the news! Also have you tried a TCA(Remeron or Trazodone) since SSRI's have failed or an SRNI like Effexor? Alankay

[jessed03]

Matt, Matt, Matt! Welcome!

A medication change is always a consideration, when one isn't cutting it. We take them to do a job, if it's doing a pretty shoddy one, maybe it's time to let some other one have a try? But that's always just a maybe to slowly mull over, as you go a little deeper.

Unfortunately, your logic has gotten you into trouble here. You're right my friend, joining an anxiety forum, called the anxiety forum - What could be simpler? Unfortunately, it's too simple! I'm afraid, we're the folk too lazy to find anywhere else! This forum was designed to keep us common folk from ever finding the real diamonds elsewhere on other forums! ;) Joking, of course, there are a knowledgeable bunch on here, that come and go.

There was a similar post, a few weeks ago, named something like Worrying 24/7 abouut Global events. By going through a couple of pages, you'll find it. The poster is going through something reasonably similar, not so much 'end of the world stuff', but fears of a global meltdown, through war, or something. Maybe the posts in there could help, and he is currently going through treatment, I'm sure if you post in the thread, he'd be happy to up date you. There are also other posts on end of the world related anxiety, but these are older, and I'm not too sure if those posters are around. The feeling of terrible dread is also a common theme that you can find using the search button, or even popping up on the daily forum.

Anyway, be well, and you'll find this is a very welcoming, understanding and friendly place to be :)

[miss_mac666]

this forum has helped me alot! people on here are awesome.

we are all suffering from anxiety, but we can help each other.. although some dont take advice at all. have an open mind :-)

if you need to talk dont hesitate to message or go into the chat. i find the chat easier.

[mnt20062010]

Thanks for the welcomes! I HAVE tried remeron-almost killed me, or at least it felt that way. Effexor,as well. I've been on so many meds w/usually minimal results. Once my neuropothy is under control, my doc is going to start hitting the depression/anxiety pretty hard. I've also did the therapy route for about a year. It helped alot with the ocd-with the exception of my germ phobia. I'm still terrified of germs. I must be pretty a pretty jacked-up dude, because I made her cry a few times. I've spent most of the day trying to figure out how to build a bunker to protect my family. I think I've crossed a line now. I blame bryan williams of nightline, national geographic channel, and history channel (which is my favorite). I went on ebay and the first thing I see is some 2012 t-shirts being sold by some religious guy. Media has become so saturated w/it, that it's impossible to escape it. Even if you don't watch it, some nim-rod will come up and start talking about it. Of course I'm thinking, "luckily for you that you've paralized me with fear, otherwise, I'd kick the crap out of you!"