jwood
02-24-2012, 04:27 PM
Hello everyone, It's comforting to know I am not alone when it comes to anxiety. I think I have the most severe cases of all. (wait is that anxiety talking again???) okay so let me explain to you I have went from having social anxiety which I still have to EXTREME health anxiety. Seriously, for the past five months I swear I have been living life daily thinking I am going to die soon. It all started last year around dec. I found out I was preggo with my 3rd(yay) suppose to be exciting right???? Well about a week later I had blood work done showing high liver enzymes!!! So ontop of me being emotional about pregnancy I can not tell you how I thought that christmas was going to be my last. I am a severe internet reader to the MAX. I read high liver enzymes could be serious life or death kinda thing. Four about 5 weeks I had them rechecked and rechecked they went up and I thought the worst. Finally they went down to normal. Found out it was FREAKIN MONO!!!! but when the doctor told me it was mono I thought she was lying to me.Okay sooooooooooooooooooo after I got the news that it went down I was like WHEEEEEWWW started living life again literally. UP until about 5 days ago.......I noticed I have a lot of moles on my body I mean a lot. Some look crazy weird and others seem normal. So what do I do???? YEP read all around the internet for about 12 hours a day.......MELANOMA!!!!! Swear I know one of these moles are it. Well couldn't see a doc went and seen a nurse prectisioner however you spell it. She said they looked fine. I was good for about 30 minutes. Than went home read more and more and more. To the point I went to a whole nother clinic and seen a very very very nice nurse prac. again. I told her about my anxiety and she was nice enough to look at all my moles and said that she thought it was normal also. She told me that If I want some removed she would be more than happy to have it done. However the doctor that does them is gone for a month go figure. So I am going to see a dermatologist in 2 weeks. For a third approval. I am a bit better today after speaking with her. But my anxiety is always maybe she missed something. STUPID is it not. Well I have 2 kids and one on the way and every fear is that I am not going to see them grow up. Thankfully my husband is so wonderfull he always says it will all be okay, but he puts up a lot of bs from me on a regular basis. He doesn't fully understand what anxiety does to you. I wouldn't expect him to since he doesn't have it lol. I am here to get to know others with similar anxiety's makes me feel better talking with others that go through on a daily basis that I go through. All I want is to lead a normal life without daily fears of death and health. If you have any tips it would be great. THanks for reading!!!