MaKenna13
02-18-2012, 06:13 PM
Hey everyone..
Well, I'm on this site for obviously reasons. I'm 22 years old, and I started noticing my anxiety at a young age... Maybe 12? My mother definitely had anxiety and took medication for it. I personally have chosen not to take medication for it. My mother got addicted and now has a huge alcohol and drug problem. I'm trying to stay away from that. I don't drink alcohol and I don't do any sort of over the counter drug or any other drug for that matter. Although I have a bad anxiety problem, I still strive to reach my goals in life of being a writer. Messing it up with self medicating isn't an option for me.
So here goes... When I get anxious I get nauseous and feel like I'm going to literally get sick. I get sweaty and my palms get clammy. I feel extremely light headed and my eyes get fuzzy. There are only a few things that can actually calm me down. Either I have to be completely alone at home, driving in my car for hours, smoking a cigarette sometimes helps, or I take a shower/bath. I also have a fear of germs. It never used to be bad, but lately it has gotten so bad that I am constantly washing my hands, I carry hand sanitizer... I get mad when my boyfriend touches things that might have germs on it without hesitation. It's starting to become a huge problem. I don't know why this is happening to me, or why I can't just forget about it. It's starting to get in the way of my everyday routine. I need to find a way to get around this, or a better way to handle things!! I think being on a forum talking to people who share similar problems would help my understanding and maybe help a little with anxiety!
Well, I'm on this site for obviously reasons. I'm 22 years old, and I started noticing my anxiety at a young age... Maybe 12? My mother definitely had anxiety and took medication for it. I personally have chosen not to take medication for it. My mother got addicted and now has a huge alcohol and drug problem. I'm trying to stay away from that. I don't drink alcohol and I don't do any sort of over the counter drug or any other drug for that matter. Although I have a bad anxiety problem, I still strive to reach my goals in life of being a writer. Messing it up with self medicating isn't an option for me.
So here goes... When I get anxious I get nauseous and feel like I'm going to literally get sick. I get sweaty and my palms get clammy. I feel extremely light headed and my eyes get fuzzy. There are only a few things that can actually calm me down. Either I have to be completely alone at home, driving in my car for hours, smoking a cigarette sometimes helps, or I take a shower/bath. I also have a fear of germs. It never used to be bad, but lately it has gotten so bad that I am constantly washing my hands, I carry hand sanitizer... I get mad when my boyfriend touches things that might have germs on it without hesitation. It's starting to become a huge problem. I don't know why this is happening to me, or why I can't just forget about it. It's starting to get in the way of my everyday routine. I need to find a way to get around this, or a better way to handle things!! I think being on a forum talking to people who share similar problems would help my understanding and maybe help a little with anxiety!