Don't know what to do

[kate5157]

I have suffered with anxiety as long as I can remember, it began to get out of hand when I was 15 and I was prescribed propranalol which helped at the time and the anxiety returned to a manageable level. I'm now 19 and everything was fine until about 5 weeks ago, I started feeling like I couldn't get enough air and couldn't breath, then I started getting aches randomly. Then everytime I left the house it was so scary, everything outside goes blurry and merges together. I made a doctors appointment who without checking me but looked at my history said it was anxiety and post natal depression as I had a baby 11 weeks ago, I was put on paroxetine because its one of the only anti depressants which is ok while breastfeeding, the drug really disagreed with me and I had a week of full blown constant loops of panic attacks, I had to contact a local mental health crisis team to help me as I was in such a scary dark place. I have now switched meds but since that week I now suffer atleast 3 full blown panic attacks a day, I cannot leave the house, I can't be in a room on my own, I am so weak I can't even walk up the stairs without difficulty, everything aches, my head feels full like its going to explode, I am not sleeping as I fear not waking up. When I have a panic attack my chest burns, heart races, I can't get my breath, I get tunnel vision and I start a crying fit. I have never met anyone who has panic attacks and I feel so alone. Even feeding my baby drains all my energy, I don't know what to do I don't see any way up I am so scared all of the time I don't know how much more I can take . Can anxiety really do all of this?!