Mrs.
02-05-2012, 05:37 PM
As far I remember,i've always been a bit of a worrier, but things have got out of hand the last 1-2 years. I moved countries to be with my boyfriend (now husband) and that is where my anxieties increased. As I moved abroad, (my mother tongue is English) I am not fluent in the language of my new country, and therefore do not have a job yet, (partly my worrying is holding me back, partly fear) And of course, not having a job means I have so much time to worry and obsess over the following:-
- Worrying what people think of me
- Never finding a job.
- Never mastering my new language.
- Scared of having kids.
- Worrying that life is passing me by.
- Worrying about worrying
- Googling an illness and convincing myself I have it.
- Convincing myself I have an undiagnosed illness.
- Scared of talking to people I don't know/Scared of talking to people in the street/stores who can't speak English.
- Scared of being alone outside the house without my husband.
- Fear of ending up in mental hospital
- Dying
- family Dying
- Worrying my husband will get tired of dealing with my constant worrying.
Learning the Language, and Finding a job are my biggest Anxieties, and all the others seem to stem from those. The language is proving extremely difficult because I am absolutely terrified of mispronouncing words and getting the grammar wrong, even though I realise this is part of learning! I am supposed to be going to a language course tomorrow but am talking myself out of it as we speak. I do not (as of yet) have/had any noticable physical effects from worrying. No panic attacks, just constant worrying about something. A few months ago out of nowhere I worried for days if my guests had had a good time at our wedding (which was over a year before!)
I have been open with my husband and he is very supportive, but at the same time this brings up a whole other type of anxiety, what if he begins to get annoyed because I can't stop worrying?
I am trying to figure out how to help myself here, any advice would be welcome. I am not on any medication, Thanks.
- Worrying what people think of me
- Never finding a job.
- Never mastering my new language.
- Scared of having kids.
- Worrying that life is passing me by.
- Worrying about worrying
- Googling an illness and convincing myself I have it.
- Convincing myself I have an undiagnosed illness.
- Scared of talking to people I don't know/Scared of talking to people in the street/stores who can't speak English.
- Scared of being alone outside the house without my husband.
- Fear of ending up in mental hospital
- Dying
- family Dying
- Worrying my husband will get tired of dealing with my constant worrying.
Learning the Language, and Finding a job are my biggest Anxieties, and all the others seem to stem from those. The language is proving extremely difficult because I am absolutely terrified of mispronouncing words and getting the grammar wrong, even though I realise this is part of learning! I am supposed to be going to a language course tomorrow but am talking myself out of it as we speak. I do not (as of yet) have/had any noticable physical effects from worrying. No panic attacks, just constant worrying about something. A few months ago out of nowhere I worried for days if my guests had had a good time at our wedding (which was over a year before!)
I have been open with my husband and he is very supportive, but at the same time this brings up a whole other type of anxiety, what if he begins to get annoyed because I can't stop worrying?
I am trying to figure out how to help myself here, any advice would be welcome. I am not on any medication, Thanks.