Hi, wanted to introduce myself

[fear&anxiety]

I've already asked some questions and find the forum helpful. My name just reflects what I'm going thru right now, I haven't always been so nervous. My diagnosis is bipolar schizoaffective. I am hoping the anxiety issues settle down a bit as time goes by. I suffer from stomach nervousness, and also leg nervousness (different than RLS). I take Abilify, Lithium, Klonopin, Prozac, and Trazodone.

[*pixiedust*]

Hi there!

I'm known as pixie :-)

First of all I would like to say that I hope ur anxiety settles too and I am sorry that u are suffering with them at the moment. I also am sorry about ur illness, it must be very hard to deal with and I hope you are finding that your medication is making u feel much much better. I also find the forum very helpful and try to help oyher people quite a lot, I'v had a bit of a posting binge lately :-)

My diagnosis is severe GAD, with panic attacks, a needle phobia and agoraphobia and depression. I have recently developed what I guess is OCD because I get the same thing going round in my head all day, in fact I'v had the same problem going round in my head most of all day everyday for months, in a little cycle. I get a lot of derealization. I think I have bpd, I'm going to the doctors a lot at the moment who are trying to cut down the anxiety and depression and are doing assesments and stuff. I get quite a lot of health anxiety, I get lots and lots of anxiety in a relationship, to the point I wont have one right now and worry about if I look "normal" or not. I wear full make up everyday and wont leave the house without it. If someone comes to my house and I have no make up on, I panic and get embarrased and even upset. I wont sit in a room of people without makeup on. I am better than i used to be with it though, selected people see me without makeup, well, without full make up :-S But then again, I worry about a LOT! The GAD is quite extensive. And I get stressed quite a lot and I worry a lot that I'm selfish or a spoiled brat or not a very nice person and that I dont do enough for other people. I hope thats not true. I try to help people and be nice. I sometimes think people think I'm weird. Oh and I have a big fear thinking I'm going to hallucinate, which is VERY rare for me but has happened. Wierd thing is, when it has happened, it hasnt been scary! Not REALLY scary anyway, a bit scary. I'm more scared of just how scary it could get.

I have tried a few tablets, they dont seem to agree with me and I wouldnt take them for years because I'm scared of the side affects but I have tried some recently, I'v taken Sertaline the last two days. I keep getting all excited and happy and a bit all over the place and then I get scared cos I feel too excited. I'v had this before the tablets a few times too. I'm really hoping these ones will work, I get so anxious about taking them, and the ones I'v had before have made me hallucinate, I dont know if I get worse because I know I'm taking tablets! But these seem the best so far. And I have diazaphan but I only got it recently cos I'v got so bad I cant go to work and freak out a lot during the day. I'm hoping I'll be fixed eventually :-)

Anyway, it was very nice for you to introduce yourself, I think I'v spieled enough now!