mariahjean
01-26-2012, 12:24 PM
Hi everyone,
My name is Mariah and I was diagnosed with GAD 5 years ago, however I believe it has been going on most of my life. I won't go into every detail of my anxiety but my biggest problems are associated with sleeping and emotional breakdowns. My fear of falling asleep has been haunting me most of my life. The moment I put my head on my pillow and close my eyes my head starts playing games with me. I see scary, horrible things; things from horror movies I've never even watched. This often leads to crying and embarrassment. I often get out of my bed and go to the bathroom to make myself feel better. Sometimes I'll use the washroom ten times before I fall asleep. Because of this I have to stay away from many television shows and movies. I can't watch crime dramas like CSI, I can't handle Harry Potter, I can't even watch The Simpsons Halloween episodes. I often get laughed at because of this but I just can't do it. If a commercial for a horror movie comes on the tv I have to close my eyes and plug my ears I just can't handle it.
I also have a fear of being alone (especially at night). This causes me to skip many of my night courses for school because I am too scared to walk from the bus stop to my house after class. If it weren't for my fiance I wouldn't be able to live on my own.
My anxiety produces lots of emotions inside of me and I often cry for no particular reason. I get angry easily, even at people I don't know. Ex, I will get angry at the bus driver if he is late because it will affect my entire day. My fiance gets frustrated and sometimes I feel like I am just blaming everything on my anxiety and he doesn't believe me. He just thinks I am rude or over-sensitive sometimes. I am on medication but sometimes I don't feel like it's doing me a whole lot of favours. I wish this would go away. My family is optimistic that I will "grow out of it" and my Dad still thinks its all "in my head". I wish I knew why my brain does this.
Any similar stories?
My name is Mariah and I was diagnosed with GAD 5 years ago, however I believe it has been going on most of my life. I won't go into every detail of my anxiety but my biggest problems are associated with sleeping and emotional breakdowns. My fear of falling asleep has been haunting me most of my life. The moment I put my head on my pillow and close my eyes my head starts playing games with me. I see scary, horrible things; things from horror movies I've never even watched. This often leads to crying and embarrassment. I often get out of my bed and go to the bathroom to make myself feel better. Sometimes I'll use the washroom ten times before I fall asleep. Because of this I have to stay away from many television shows and movies. I can't watch crime dramas like CSI, I can't handle Harry Potter, I can't even watch The Simpsons Halloween episodes. I often get laughed at because of this but I just can't do it. If a commercial for a horror movie comes on the tv I have to close my eyes and plug my ears I just can't handle it.
I also have a fear of being alone (especially at night). This causes me to skip many of my night courses for school because I am too scared to walk from the bus stop to my house after class. If it weren't for my fiance I wouldn't be able to live on my own.
My anxiety produces lots of emotions inside of me and I often cry for no particular reason. I get angry easily, even at people I don't know. Ex, I will get angry at the bus driver if he is late because it will affect my entire day. My fiance gets frustrated and sometimes I feel like I am just blaming everything on my anxiety and he doesn't believe me. He just thinks I am rude or over-sensitive sometimes. I am on medication but sometimes I don't feel like it's doing me a whole lot of favours. I wish this would go away. My family is optimistic that I will "grow out of it" and my Dad still thinks its all "in my head". I wish I knew why my brain does this.
Any similar stories?