Razzle
12-24-2011, 08:00 AM
I have had anxiety for over 40 years and was housebound at age 19 for 2 years. I recovered and had decades of a good life. Now it is all back and worse than I have ever seen it. I also have several anxiety friends and they have never been as bad as I am.
I have severe agitation so I walk and pace many hours a day - I burn all over and shake or jitter. I am so sensitive my clothes hurt to touch my body - cant stand to watch TV - listen to music or go into a store as it sets my nerves off worse. I have severe nausea and stomach cramps so I can hardly eat. I cant stand noise of movement like my cat walking across the bed
I am afraid of everything - everything in my world is frightening - bad DR - I feel totally physically sick and can hardly do simple self care things most days. There is so much more.
My nights are worse hell - lucky to sleep 2 to 4 hours - I wake up burning - shaking and jittering and scared shitless - I see evil faces looming behind closed eyes - wicked thoughts all night - dozens of horrid physical symptoms and up to pee half dozen times.
I have so may more symptoms I cant even describe - I am in constant torture every single second.
I went the anxiety drug route many years ago and had horrible adverse reactions to every one of the 14 I tried or severe withdrawals from benzos so that is out.
I feel like no one has ever been this bad - am I alone in this severity?????
Thanks for responding I am really freaked
I have severe agitation so I walk and pace many hours a day - I burn all over and shake or jitter. I am so sensitive my clothes hurt to touch my body - cant stand to watch TV - listen to music or go into a store as it sets my nerves off worse. I have severe nausea and stomach cramps so I can hardly eat. I cant stand noise of movement like my cat walking across the bed
I am afraid of everything - everything in my world is frightening - bad DR - I feel totally physically sick and can hardly do simple self care things most days. There is so much more.
My nights are worse hell - lucky to sleep 2 to 4 hours - I wake up burning - shaking and jittering and scared shitless - I see evil faces looming behind closed eyes - wicked thoughts all night - dozens of horrid physical symptoms and up to pee half dozen times.
I have so may more symptoms I cant even describe - I am in constant torture every single second.
I went the anxiety drug route many years ago and had horrible adverse reactions to every one of the 14 I tried or severe withdrawals from benzos so that is out.
I feel like no one has ever been this bad - am I alone in this severity?????
Thanks for responding I am really freaked