zygirl
11-14-2011, 03:43 PM
Hi Folks,
First a little about me. I am a 22 year old girl, I love pretty much everything life has to offer. I have lots of hobbies, from fishkeeping to reading, outdoors, hot weather, friends, cooking, family.. I could go on forever.
A few months ago out of the blue I started having what I now know are panic attacks. I felt extremely nauseous, though I was going to be sick.. Couldn't get air, etc. I run my own little business, so I told my desk lady I was heading out, and away I went. I got home, felt pretty good.. Shook it off, relaxed. Next day -- same thing. Thought it was weird, but whatever.. I'm pretty easygoing.
However -- somehow, and I don't know how it turned into an obsession. I now believe that I am on the verge of vomiting (even though I have not once vomited) everyday. My life is being ruined because I can't enjoy myself, for fear of throwing up. I did go to the doctor, and she prescribed me prozac 10mg for daily use, which I haven't taken. Why you ask? The number one symptom is.. VOMITING.. I can't do it. I can.not.vomit. She also prescribed me 1mg tablets of ativan, and I have taken about 4 of those in "emergency situations" I like those, but she told me they are not suitable for long term use. I need to be careful of them.
SO.. This "sickness" is taking away my future. I am getting married in 6 months, and panicking because I am not going to be able to enjoy myself, and I will just be thinking of how not to throw up (because this is what I'm thinking of almost all the time). I do not want to have children now because of the thought of morning sickness, etc... I also have dropped weight because most food (unless it's something I really like) disgusts me. Sometimes I will go and cook an entire meal and be sickened by it because all I can think of is what it would be like coming back up.
I am at a loss as to what to do. I almost wish I could puke so I could knock some sense into my head. I feel like a crazy woman. I haven't told anyone yet -- My fiance knows to some extent because we live together, but I've pretty much kept it a secret.
I am not sure how this came about, but I did have a really nasty 4 day stomach bug april gone by. Seems to be a bit of a delayed reaction...
First a little about me. I am a 22 year old girl, I love pretty much everything life has to offer. I have lots of hobbies, from fishkeeping to reading, outdoors, hot weather, friends, cooking, family.. I could go on forever.
A few months ago out of the blue I started having what I now know are panic attacks. I felt extremely nauseous, though I was going to be sick.. Couldn't get air, etc. I run my own little business, so I told my desk lady I was heading out, and away I went. I got home, felt pretty good.. Shook it off, relaxed. Next day -- same thing. Thought it was weird, but whatever.. I'm pretty easygoing.
However -- somehow, and I don't know how it turned into an obsession. I now believe that I am on the verge of vomiting (even though I have not once vomited) everyday. My life is being ruined because I can't enjoy myself, for fear of throwing up. I did go to the doctor, and she prescribed me prozac 10mg for daily use, which I haven't taken. Why you ask? The number one symptom is.. VOMITING.. I can't do it. I can.not.vomit. She also prescribed me 1mg tablets of ativan, and I have taken about 4 of those in "emergency situations" I like those, but she told me they are not suitable for long term use. I need to be careful of them.
SO.. This "sickness" is taking away my future. I am getting married in 6 months, and panicking because I am not going to be able to enjoy myself, and I will just be thinking of how not to throw up (because this is what I'm thinking of almost all the time). I do not want to have children now because of the thought of morning sickness, etc... I also have dropped weight because most food (unless it's something I really like) disgusts me. Sometimes I will go and cook an entire meal and be sickened by it because all I can think of is what it would be like coming back up.
I am at a loss as to what to do. I almost wish I could puke so I could knock some sense into my head. I feel like a crazy woman. I haven't told anyone yet -- My fiance knows to some extent because we live together, but I've pretty much kept it a secret.
I am not sure how this came about, but I did have a really nasty 4 day stomach bug april gone by. Seems to be a bit of a delayed reaction...