DecoDame
11-11-2011, 10:43 AM
Hello everyone,
My name is Mandi. I'm 25, living in Niagara. I have suffered from Anxiety and low level depression for about 10 years. I have found that within the last three years, it has been worsening, and I am at the point now where it is really starting to affect my every day life. I find it hard to talk about though, as I'm tired of being looked at like I'm crazy, or that I'm making it up, or that I just need to "get over it". My irrational fear of driving has impacted my ability to get around and to find a decent job(there are no jobs in my city). Every morning I wake up to go to work and I instantly feel ill and anxious. I don't know why! My co-workers are friendly, it's not a hard job. I really just don't want to leave my house unless I'm with my partner or a friend. Even then, social situations are becoming uncomfortable. I constantly worry about what people are thinking of me, and I always assume it's the worst. I have no reason to think that, but I can't help it. I get pins and needles all over my body, though mostly in my legs. My heart beat is irregular and usually quite high. I constantly feel like I have to run to the bathroom and my stomach is painfully bloated. I feel like I'm afraid of everything. I get told oh, you're just a cautious person..but this caution is starting to go to far. I feel like I've missed out on so much in my life because I get too anxious or afraid at the thoughts of trying something new. The fear of making a fool of myself is overwhelming. I have had a string of not so great things happen in the past year and a half and I have found it has made all of this so much worse. I feel like I'm living in constant impending doom. I keep waiting for the next bad thing to happen...for the other shoe to drop. That isn't me! I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm worried I'm going to loose my job one of these days because I keep getting sick. I can't sleep, my eating patterns have gotten so screwed up, and everything around me feels like it's screwing up with it. I just want to live a normal life. I want to be able to do things, and go places without feeling uncomfortable, without having to worry that there might not be a bathroom close by incase I have an attack, I want to be happy! I've had enough with dispair and fear and anxiousness. I'm sorry for such a long winded post...but I can't think of anywhere else I can vent about this and not be viewed as insane.
My name is Mandi. I'm 25, living in Niagara. I have suffered from Anxiety and low level depression for about 10 years. I have found that within the last three years, it has been worsening, and I am at the point now where it is really starting to affect my every day life. I find it hard to talk about though, as I'm tired of being looked at like I'm crazy, or that I'm making it up, or that I just need to "get over it". My irrational fear of driving has impacted my ability to get around and to find a decent job(there are no jobs in my city). Every morning I wake up to go to work and I instantly feel ill and anxious. I don't know why! My co-workers are friendly, it's not a hard job. I really just don't want to leave my house unless I'm with my partner or a friend. Even then, social situations are becoming uncomfortable. I constantly worry about what people are thinking of me, and I always assume it's the worst. I have no reason to think that, but I can't help it. I get pins and needles all over my body, though mostly in my legs. My heart beat is irregular and usually quite high. I constantly feel like I have to run to the bathroom and my stomach is painfully bloated. I feel like I'm afraid of everything. I get told oh, you're just a cautious person..but this caution is starting to go to far. I feel like I've missed out on so much in my life because I get too anxious or afraid at the thoughts of trying something new. The fear of making a fool of myself is overwhelming. I have had a string of not so great things happen in the past year and a half and I have found it has made all of this so much worse. I feel like I'm living in constant impending doom. I keep waiting for the next bad thing to happen...for the other shoe to drop. That isn't me! I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm worried I'm going to loose my job one of these days because I keep getting sick. I can't sleep, my eating patterns have gotten so screwed up, and everything around me feels like it's screwing up with it. I just want to live a normal life. I want to be able to do things, and go places without feeling uncomfortable, without having to worry that there might not be a bathroom close by incase I have an attack, I want to be happy! I've had enough with dispair and fear and anxiousness. I'm sorry for such a long winded post...but I can't think of anywhere else I can vent about this and not be viewed as insane.