smilesaway78
10-31-2011, 10:54 AM
Hi everyone.
Now I’m usually a happy go lucky kid of guy. I have a good group of friends, a wonderful fiancée and a supportive family but for as long as I can remember I have suffered at various times in my life awful anxiety and more recently catastrophisating.
If anything goes wrong I always fear the worst, whether that be past girlfriends or stuff at work.
At the moment I have noticed that over the last 12-18 months I have made a few mistakes at work. In my rational mind I know that there is an answer to every problem or another view point. The problems are not huge.
But then my irrational mind takes over, I question my judgement (a decade of experience) convinced that the errors I make will lead to me getting the sack, which will in turn destroy my future and the future plans I have with my partner.
Anxiety has always manifested itself in one particular form for me, I feel sick, get lots of saliva in my mouth and end up with a dry cough which in turn makes me heave and on occasion actually be sick. I remember this happening as a child and I still do it now when I become anxious.
It has got to a point now where it has to stop but I do not know what I should do, or more to the point I am terrified of doing certain things because of my notion that I think the worst outcome is the most likely.
To be fair I have always been a bit of a wuss and tried my hardest to avoid conflict and always hated being told off as a child.
I just want to feel normal in the morning and not feel sick. It all revolves around work as I spent the last week off feeling pretty stress free.
I just don’t know what the next step is… Has anyone got any pointers for me.
Thanks for reading.
John
Now I’m usually a happy go lucky kid of guy. I have a good group of friends, a wonderful fiancée and a supportive family but for as long as I can remember I have suffered at various times in my life awful anxiety and more recently catastrophisating.
If anything goes wrong I always fear the worst, whether that be past girlfriends or stuff at work.
At the moment I have noticed that over the last 12-18 months I have made a few mistakes at work. In my rational mind I know that there is an answer to every problem or another view point. The problems are not huge.
But then my irrational mind takes over, I question my judgement (a decade of experience) convinced that the errors I make will lead to me getting the sack, which will in turn destroy my future and the future plans I have with my partner.
Anxiety has always manifested itself in one particular form for me, I feel sick, get lots of saliva in my mouth and end up with a dry cough which in turn makes me heave and on occasion actually be sick. I remember this happening as a child and I still do it now when I become anxious.
It has got to a point now where it has to stop but I do not know what I should do, or more to the point I am terrified of doing certain things because of my notion that I think the worst outcome is the most likely.
To be fair I have always been a bit of a wuss and tried my hardest to avoid conflict and always hated being told off as a child.
I just want to feel normal in the morning and not feel sick. It all revolves around work as I spent the last week off feeling pretty stress free.
I just don’t know what the next step is… Has anyone got any pointers for me.
Thanks for reading.
John