Tired of nobody believing me.

[TheUnbelievedOne]

Hello all,

I could have sworn I already posted this, but here I am again, because I can't find the other one.

I'm at a crossroads and I don't know what to do. My entire body aches all over, like I have the flu (only I don't).

I've been to the ER three times in the last week. They ran CT scans of the chest and abdomen, MRIs, (and a duplex ultra because of my incessant leg pain); I don't have a DVT and the CT scans and MRI revealed nothing. They said all my 'innards' look fine. They're NOT fine.

This coming week I'm having a colonoscopy and pelvic ultrasound as my GP wants to rule everything out.

I have constant pain in my left flank. more in the stomach area than the back though. All tests came back normal, both blood work and urinalysis testing. My creatinine lvls are fine as is everything else.

I feel nauseated all the time, I have a very low-grade fever all the time (100), which wasn't high enough to warrant concern by the docs...which is fine.

My stools are nothing but mucous (sorry if this is too detailed, but I'm trying to give a full history here).

Right now they have me on Vicodin, Valium, and Keflex (for an infected sebaceous gland that refuses to heal and this is my second time on an antibiotic for it).

The ER doctor and my GP insist that I am suffering from anxiety and depression, but I have a nice life. We're not rich, but we're happily married, with five adorable pets. I like my life...I'm not depressed. I have no feelings of depression or upsetedness. The only 'emtional' thing I have is fear at the moment...fear that these idiotic doctors aren't finding what is wrong with me. It feels like it's in my intestinal tract (which a colonoscopy will probably rule out as well...who knows, I haven't gone in for that yet).

Has anyone else, or is anyone else, experiencing this? True...physical symptoms of something and the doctors keep telling you that your tests are normal?

I feel like nobody is believing me and I'm running out of time for them to figure it out...however crazy that may sound. I HATE Valium, it makes me feel drugged and I hate not feeling 'alive', and feeling lethargic (which only happens when I'm drugged). I don't like the Vicodin either, it makes me extremely sick-feeling (on top of the nausea I already have without it).

WHAT do you do when you're running out of options? Do I just tell them to do exploratory surgery?

I'm *not* feeling anxious or depressed or upset. I am panicky, but simply because people know their bodies, and I know something is wrong...very wrong.

[Schatmeisje]

I have felt the same a while ago now, and i knew something was wrong with me and it took over 6 months to get a very simple diagnosis- a severe B12 deficiency. The downside of this was that i then became afraid of doctors and hospitals (i would not even take panadol while in hospital for 2 weeks as i did not trust the doctors) and essentially ended up with terrible pain all over my body, excruciating headaches and migraines, constant 24/7 nausea, torn calf muscles just from sitting down, dizzness, vomiting and a lot of digestive problems, and it did turn out to be anxiety. I had all the tests to make sure (MRI, ECG's numerous times, gastroscopy, lumbar puncture, all came back normal.
I was no where near depressed either and had the perfect life when all this happened out of no-where. I guess the problem is that anxiety does produce true physical symptoms, so sometimes it is hard to allow myself to believe that it is all from anxiety, but there is still the tiniest part of me that wonders sometimes if the doctors 'missed something'.
I dont really know what else you can do if you have had all the tests, but remember that just because you have a great life and dont 'feel' anxious, it doesnt neccisarily mean that you arent. It took me 6 months to accept that it was the anxiety, and the constant fighting with doctors and hospitals made it so much worse, to the point where i became agoraphobic and housebound.

Wait until you get these last lot of tests done, and see how the results come in, and try your best to try not to stress too much about what might happen afterwards.
You are not alone, if you need anyone to talk to, im here xx