Sarah92
09-30-2011, 07:29 PM
Hi there.
My name is Sarah. Lately, I just haven't been feeling myself. I'm not sure if it's anxiety or depression or perhaps a mix of both. I feel lost and hopeless a lot. I find it comes in spurts and I have looked up anxiety attacks and I think I might be suffering from them. I can be perfectly fine all day, content and then I come home and out of no where I can experience a surge of panic, anxiety, loneliness, hopelessness and my chest will stiffen. It'll feel like it'll never end and that their is no hope. Once I'll cried uncontrollably for a bit, it settles down and I slowly return to my old self.
My life has taken a lot of changes in the past few months and I feel like this is the source of my problems. I moved out on my own in June. I was doing okay in June, it felt great having my own place, summer was beginning, I got a new pet and I met an amazing guy. In mid July, my family moved out of province, across the country and it upset me deeply. I knew it was coming, which was why I moved out on my own, but it tore me up. I've lived with my family and dogs all my life and I've yet to see them since.
I've grown to highly dislike coming home and being alone. My anxiety is based around being alone. It's like a phobia and I find it hard to cope. I'm totally okay, maybe not great, but okay when I'm with people at work or with friends, etc.
I spent a great deal of time with the guy I was dating this summer and I great extremely attached. Perhaps too attached and maybe I put too much emphasis on him. I think I made him too important in my life, possibly because I was filling a void with my family gone. Anyway, I broke up with him last week and it has caused me a great deal of pain.
I just feel so alone. I have an episode of anxiety almost every night. It always happens at night and at home. On days I don't work, I don't even want to get up in the morning, because I know I won't be socializing with anyone. I go out every weekend, I go to the gym every other day, I see my friends multiple times a week, I work five days a week and yet, if I have to spend a few hours alone in my apartment, I panic.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm seeking out a counselor, but I'm afraid that it won't help. Thing is, when I'm my okay self, I can barely remember my emotional attacks and feel like there is nothing wrong with me. I feel like two people and I think it'll be hard to open up to a counselor when I feel perfectly fine.
Sorry this probably made absolutely no sense.
My name is Sarah. Lately, I just haven't been feeling myself. I'm not sure if it's anxiety or depression or perhaps a mix of both. I feel lost and hopeless a lot. I find it comes in spurts and I have looked up anxiety attacks and I think I might be suffering from them. I can be perfectly fine all day, content and then I come home and out of no where I can experience a surge of panic, anxiety, loneliness, hopelessness and my chest will stiffen. It'll feel like it'll never end and that their is no hope. Once I'll cried uncontrollably for a bit, it settles down and I slowly return to my old self.
My life has taken a lot of changes in the past few months and I feel like this is the source of my problems. I moved out on my own in June. I was doing okay in June, it felt great having my own place, summer was beginning, I got a new pet and I met an amazing guy. In mid July, my family moved out of province, across the country and it upset me deeply. I knew it was coming, which was why I moved out on my own, but it tore me up. I've lived with my family and dogs all my life and I've yet to see them since.
I've grown to highly dislike coming home and being alone. My anxiety is based around being alone. It's like a phobia and I find it hard to cope. I'm totally okay, maybe not great, but okay when I'm with people at work or with friends, etc.
I spent a great deal of time with the guy I was dating this summer and I great extremely attached. Perhaps too attached and maybe I put too much emphasis on him. I think I made him too important in my life, possibly because I was filling a void with my family gone. Anyway, I broke up with him last week and it has caused me a great deal of pain.
I just feel so alone. I have an episode of anxiety almost every night. It always happens at night and at home. On days I don't work, I don't even want to get up in the morning, because I know I won't be socializing with anyone. I go out every weekend, I go to the gym every other day, I see my friends multiple times a week, I work five days a week and yet, if I have to spend a few hours alone in my apartment, I panic.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm seeking out a counselor, but I'm afraid that it won't help. Thing is, when I'm my okay self, I can barely remember my emotional attacks and feel like there is nothing wrong with me. I feel like two people and I think it'll be hard to open up to a counselor when I feel perfectly fine.
Sorry this probably made absolutely no sense.