OMG someone help!!! dreamlike feeling.

[mccaul83]

I've had anxiety since I was 14 years old. Most of the time I can have a panic attack and take 1/4 of a xanax and be fine. Recently my husband had to go away for work for two weeks. I was fine until the last couple of days he was gone. I had a weird panic attack that made me feel as if I was dreaming. I was outside of my doctors office and couldnt even go in. I called my dad and told him I was freaking out and he talked me into going inside. I went in and had a terrible panic attack. The nurse helped me through it and I started feeling better. Over the next few days I had panic attacks several times. I got through them as usual. My husband arrived home on a friday and we even went out of town. We did go to an amusement park were i was trapped on a ride only for like five minutes but it really freaked me out. I was in direct sunlight and it was horrible. The rest of the weekend went ok however. On monday morning my husband was upset over something and i started having a panic attack. It was a really bad one. I took a xanax again and it went away. Sometime during this I got this horrible feeling that I am dreaming or not really here. I dont know how to deal with it. Its like im having a nervous breakdown. I went to a therapist and he was horrible. Has anyone else had this feeling????????

[mccaul83]

I needed someone to explain to me why I was feeling this way, and he kept changing the subject. I told him everything wasnt feeling real and he wanted me to think about a certain day. I dont know the dose of xanax off hand but ive been taking half of a peach colored one. Honestly there are a couple of issues going on besides my husband going away. Im so afraid to take the xanax because I just got off off effexor after 8 years and that was horrible. I dont want to be addicted to anything.

[mccaul83]

Ive had anxiety since I was 14 years old. I have had two other times in my life where anxietys has taken over. I guess it just seems so scary that it happened so quickly. I have in the past used effexor mainly. I was on it for almost nine years. I just quit taking it 5 months ago ( which was very hard). I have xanax as well but very afraid I will become addicted to them. Im going to see a new therapist today.

[leighs]

Hi mccaul83. I know what you're saying about being scared of becoming addicted to Xanax. When my Dr. first gave them to me I was very leery of them. First of all, I did not want to take meds of any sort for anxiety because for some reason in my head that meant that the anxiety had won. It wasn't until I was standing in my kitchen having a panic attack that I couldn't get under control. I was telling my husband that I wanted to go to the hospital because I felt like something was wrong with me. My husband having heard this from me numerous times now knew I was having a panic attack and knew it was time for me to try the Xanax. My Dr. had prescribed .5 mg and I cut that in half. It started to work about 30-45 minutes later. It made me drowsy but it also calmed me down. I went to bed and when I woke up all of my anxiety symptoms had faded away and I was feeling much better. Realizing that almost scared me a little more. I now knew that the Xanax made me feel better so I was worried I would turn to them at the first sign of anxiety instead of trying to work through a panic attack or an anxious situation. However, I only take the Xanax if I feel like my anxiety is getting out of control and is going to turn into a full blown panic attack. On occasion I will take it if I'm feeling anxious at night and my anxiety isn't letting me sleep. I really think that Xanax helps when I need it to but I also know I don't need it all the time.

[jebnz]

I've had derealization a few times and didn't know what was happening until I found something about it on websites. I remember wandering around town one day feeling like I wasn't really there. It often makes me feel really tired too. I usually either sleep it off (if I can sleep) or try to keep doing things to distract me.