i even forgot whatt happeness feels like

[Mr.Aero7]

hey i am joseph and im 18 years old! it all starteed 3 mounths ago! a sunday as farre as i could remember! heart beeting fast . . . i guess you know the rest! t'll now i've been fighting my anxiety and depression! 2 weaks from now! it complitly changed! at the morning it's anxiety's killing sensations! creepy taughs! fear of losing control and going insane at night it's depression! 7 days from now ! each time i want to smoke ! i feel this flush taking over my heart and fear of smoking :s each time i smoke my heart starts to beat fast and my feets become really weak! i got so scared to have some heart disease ! i had this feeling of being doomed! t'll today! at the same time i wanted to smoke i dicided to go alittle bit late! than i started to feel the symptoms ! i smoked and got even worst+ depresssion :'(! why can't i have a normal life! i started to think that i am just another sinner whos being punished! guess god hates me to the verry end! i just want to get beetter! my familly is kinda not to worry ! they don't give much care of my state! cuz they never had any anxiety! anyone feeling the same?

[infear]

I used to think my anxiety was a result of sinning when I was younger. So I would cause myself even more anxiety trying not to sin. You are not alone.

[Anxiety beater]

If you anxiety only started three months ago, try to get some help now, to nip it in the bud - it doesn't have to take over your life, so don't let it! It is not an incurable disease, lots of people completely recover from anxiety, but it takes commitment, effort and work on your part - I would try to find a therapist, someone who can advise you on steps to take to overcome your anxiety. You don't say what you are smoking - that could also be making your anxiety worse. You say you want to get better - that's a really great start - the fact that you want to recover is very important and will help you get over this. You also need to believe that you can get better - you need to have faith in yourself. I wish you a speedy recovery.