OCD
08-22-2011, 09:31 AM
Hello AnxietyForum,
I am 23 years old.
I still live at home.
And i am Male.
Symtoms:
Strange feelings in my shoulders, uplifting and inward tingling pressure like something cannot escape.
Wrists feel little bit wierd also
Stomache problems (Having this for a couple years already) Feels a bit stronger and more uncomfortable now but might be Anxiety.
Sleeping allot (more then 10 hours) at wrong times.
The strange thing:
Right now i am calm.
I dont think i am depressed.
Where are my feelings? How to access.
But i cannot feel emotions. When i wanna cry
or feel something special. It feels like my shoulders and upper arms get ill. Like you being sick.
And my emotion cannot escape? Its making me so weird.
Its making me think its something phsyical.
But i need to know what phsyicalness can cause this or sickness.
I am afraid i wont be able to feel emotions anymore that i have turned into some kind of schizo.
Can these things be so sudden?
What i would like to know is if, and how, i can get my feelings back again.
What might have triggered it:
I am fighting against OCD.
I have been really mean against my mom. (but i was trying to help her)
She did go look for help because of it now. But i think i did not do it in a humane way. (kinda worried i did something wrong)
Something with my Stomache?
I have been eating allot of eggs (4 a day). But with vegetables
I have tried allot of things by now:
I have tried to look at pictures of pretty forests and feeling the goodness. *did not work*
I am not enjoying the feeling of sun on my skin anymore.
And i am not enjoying conversations but rather just observing them. Plain with no empathy.
I tried sexual pictures. *not arousing me anymore*
I tried breathing exercises. *not working*
I do have really small episodes where little of this comes back.
And i try to hold on too them but it just fades away again.
Everything feels strange... *right now i feel like i have to cry but i cant*
Every time i want to feel something. I feel this pressure from both my shoulders into my chest.
Its like i know how i should feel but it wont come out.
Its so horrible i just want to do something like cry. I need to release an emotion.
Because i cannot live like this anymore.
Its been about 4 or 5 days now..
And then i read on the internet that it can be permanent.
So that means i am dead already?
I am not depressed.
Because i don't feel depressed i just feel emotionless.
Its so hard to explain... Its trying to come from my stomache and chest. But its stuck there? Thats the best i can explain right now.
PLEASE HELP Please please i beg you.
I would give away my legs to feel again.
I am 23 years old.
I still live at home.
And i am Male.
Symtoms:
Strange feelings in my shoulders, uplifting and inward tingling pressure like something cannot escape.
Wrists feel little bit wierd also
Stomache problems (Having this for a couple years already) Feels a bit stronger and more uncomfortable now but might be Anxiety.
Sleeping allot (more then 10 hours) at wrong times.
The strange thing:
Right now i am calm.
I dont think i am depressed.
Where are my feelings? How to access.
But i cannot feel emotions. When i wanna cry
or feel something special. It feels like my shoulders and upper arms get ill. Like you being sick.
And my emotion cannot escape? Its making me so weird.
Its making me think its something phsyical.
But i need to know what phsyicalness can cause this or sickness.
I am afraid i wont be able to feel emotions anymore that i have turned into some kind of schizo.
Can these things be so sudden?
What i would like to know is if, and how, i can get my feelings back again.
What might have triggered it:
I am fighting against OCD.
I have been really mean against my mom. (but i was trying to help her)
She did go look for help because of it now. But i think i did not do it in a humane way. (kinda worried i did something wrong)
Something with my Stomache?
I have been eating allot of eggs (4 a day). But with vegetables
I have tried allot of things by now:
I have tried to look at pictures of pretty forests and feeling the goodness. *did not work*
I am not enjoying the feeling of sun on my skin anymore.
And i am not enjoying conversations but rather just observing them. Plain with no empathy.
I tried sexual pictures. *not arousing me anymore*
I tried breathing exercises. *not working*
I do have really small episodes where little of this comes back.
And i try to hold on too them but it just fades away again.
Everything feels strange... *right now i feel like i have to cry but i cant*
Every time i want to feel something. I feel this pressure from both my shoulders into my chest.
Its like i know how i should feel but it wont come out.
Its so horrible i just want to do something like cry. I need to release an emotion.
Because i cannot live like this anymore.
Its been about 4 or 5 days now..
And then i read on the internet that it can be permanent.
So that means i am dead already?
I am not depressed.
Because i don't feel depressed i just feel emotionless.
Its so hard to explain... Its trying to come from my stomache and chest. But its stuck there? Thats the best i can explain right now.
PLEASE HELP Please please i beg you.
I would give away my legs to feel again.