crazylyn1
08-20-2011, 09:30 AM
I have been suffering from anxiety for almost 20 years now. It was very bad in the beginning and I survived it with the help of an excellent doctor who always put my needs first.
Now, I have moved to a small town and have been lonely for 9 years and have experienced tremendous stress due to family and financial problems.
Now my doctor tell me (after a holter moniter) that my heart skips a beat and beats way too fast sometimes but tells me that it usually doesn't lead to a heart attack. Well, I have the type of tinitus that you can hear your heartbeat in your ear so I am becoming somewhat of a obsessive person as all day long I know whether my heart is beating fast or not.
My anxiety is through the roof which does not help at all with the heartbeat in my ears. I have myself dead and burried just about every day and can vividly imagine me on my death bed begging to stay alive. Needless to say this all sucks big time. Some days, if I am around people, I can manage quite fine but I have nobody to talk to in this small town and Im afraid Im going to die alone.
Now, I have moved to a small town and have been lonely for 9 years and have experienced tremendous stress due to family and financial problems.
Now my doctor tell me (after a holter moniter) that my heart skips a beat and beats way too fast sometimes but tells me that it usually doesn't lead to a heart attack. Well, I have the type of tinitus that you can hear your heartbeat in your ear so I am becoming somewhat of a obsessive person as all day long I know whether my heart is beating fast or not.
My anxiety is through the roof which does not help at all with the heartbeat in my ears. I have myself dead and burried just about every day and can vividly imagine me on my death bed begging to stay alive. Needless to say this all sucks big time. Some days, if I am around people, I can manage quite fine but I have nobody to talk to in this small town and Im afraid Im going to die alone.