hello im natalie help needed!!

[natalie23]

hello im natalie im 22 and new to the site, i have recently been told by the docter i have anxiety, it all started off about a year ago with tension headaches and burning sensation in my head, use to loose concentration and auto matically think i had a brain tumour, i was put on citalapram 10 mg, recently i have been gettin panic attack type symptoms hot flushes, tingling hands and feet, chest pain and pains down my arm and legs, the docter has put me on diazapram to help me relax, but i panic more as i think im having a heartattack.also have fear of dying does any one else experience syptoms like this??? would be great to speak to someone and have some reassurity.

thanks

[natalie23]

anyone?????

[Amy1986]

I do!!!! I have suffered for years and everyone is ignoring me!!!

[natalie23]

do you have the same symptoms as me? have u been to the docs, ive been to the docs and he keeps palming off with all this medication thats not helping

[Amy1986]

Do you know whats causing them? yes i have been there and done it all unfortunately. I went to docs and like you he gave me meds and nothing else, when it got worse i told him i'd kill myself if i didnt get help that wasnt in the form of a frickin pill soooo he put me on the CBT waiting list, luckily with threats i got in quickly. my story is a pretty long one if you have the time. :)

[natalie23]

yes i have the time? wat is a cbt waiting list, no i dont no wat is causing them

[Amy1986]

So here is my story,

5 years ago i got out a very controlled abusive relationship. He was a mental/emotional abuser. I dont want to go into it as it hurts me to think about it. Subsequently i got ill, i remember my first attack like it was yesterday. I was on a train on the way to college, i was studying to be a chef at the time, i had an attack, people staring from my uncontrollable heaving breathing, fidgeting with my hands and crying. It felt like i was going to die, i thought i was dying!!!! So i thought it was trains and my poor mother had to drive me to school and i got the train back, as the train home (safety place) was okay. So then it started happening at college and i started walking out of classes, calling in sick and getting behind so i quit, i quit my job too after an episode of screaming and throwing pans etc. i became a hermit, i never left the house and someone had to be with me at home at all times to give me any medical attention i may need as by this time i was hearing voices that i was going to die, that i deserved to die and that i would hurt people if i left the house.......this was the LAST straw!!!!!! i would NOT be defeated by a feeling so i went to my doctor and got on anti-Ds and something to help me eat/sleep as i'd down to 6st at 5ft 2in. my partner at the time was the only reason i didnt kill myself. i started CBT and got set 'homework' and tasks. i came out of it in a manner of speaking but even now i suffer daily with panic attacks, negetive thoughts and dark moods. its creeping back it seems, i have found myself making less effort with ppl, my partner is a saint truely...poor guy, i dont deserve him. i have lost friends and been labeled crazy. i cant take anymore!!!

[Amy1986]

CBT is Cognitive behavioural thereapy. it addressed each fear/issue i had and turned it into something positive and into a smaller problem. i did 5 sessions of 1 hr and i went from not leaving the house to finishing collge, employment and moving out of my home with my partner at the time. it never went away, not completely but i have found a way of living with it. i also tried hypnotherapy which was okay but she kept saying 'wow you have issues' but in all honesty i thought i was okay until i got sick.