nowhereboy
07-14-2011, 12:14 PM
hey folks. Id like someone to help give me a clue whats going on. I was a recreational drug user for a few months (most weekends) and im pretty sure this has triggerd my panic. In short i had a big panic attack at a party, felt like id lost my mind and had trouble breathing etc and my life has been a rollercoaster ride since. It might be worth mentioning i have since quit and not took anything in over a month.
On good days i feel pretty much normal, infact somtimes i think "what was i even worrying about" then on a bad day i feel like im going insane. I dont see things, or hear voices, i just obsesse over thoughts of worry. I quesition everything "what is conciousness, how do i no who i am, what is reality etc" I start to feel trapped, i feel like ive just gotta do somthing but i dont no what! Somtimes i can shake the thoughts early then somtimes they grip me and take control. I seem to get to a certain point and then i just start feeling like im loosing it. At its worse its hard to concentrate and my head just feels kinda empty. Google doesnt help, everytime i search my symptoms i find another mental illness to worry about lol!
I have been taking kalms which seem to help a little. I felt fine for almost a week then for no reason at all i felt the fear building again today. Its like "ah yes, i remember how this feels, awfull!" Anyone else expirienced this sort of issue? One minute i think im fine, the next im convinced im going mad. Please tell me this sounds like anxiety to you lot? I need to go to the docs i know, just on a good day i think "im fine its pointless going" and on a bad day i dont really feel up to talking to anyone. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
On good days i feel pretty much normal, infact somtimes i think "what was i even worrying about" then on a bad day i feel like im going insane. I dont see things, or hear voices, i just obsesse over thoughts of worry. I quesition everything "what is conciousness, how do i no who i am, what is reality etc" I start to feel trapped, i feel like ive just gotta do somthing but i dont no what! Somtimes i can shake the thoughts early then somtimes they grip me and take control. I seem to get to a certain point and then i just start feeling like im loosing it. At its worse its hard to concentrate and my head just feels kinda empty. Google doesnt help, everytime i search my symptoms i find another mental illness to worry about lol!
I have been taking kalms which seem to help a little. I felt fine for almost a week then for no reason at all i felt the fear building again today. Its like "ah yes, i remember how this feels, awfull!" Anyone else expirienced this sort of issue? One minute i think im fine, the next im convinced im going mad. Please tell me this sounds like anxiety to you lot? I need to go to the docs i know, just on a good day i think "im fine its pointless going" and on a bad day i dont really feel up to talking to anyone. Thanks for taking the time to read this.