MagicBeans
07-12-2011, 10:47 AM
Hi everyone,
So pleased to find this forum. I'll explain a bit about whats going on, I'll try and keep it as brief as I can.
I run my own small business and get all the stress and anxiety that comes with that territory. But, stress within the business I find can be kinda useful here and there and I can very much deal with it. I'm very proud of myself that I can run this little business well and get it to break even already, after only trading for 7 months. Woo!
But, I'm really starting to falter, and its not really the fault of my business. I'm in a sort of unusual situation which I think is why I'm finding it difficult to resolve - I've started this business in my old home town (thought it would be better to have a shop in an area I knew very well) and I stay with my parents some of the week. They also fronted the capital to start the business, so really this is their investment. Which I think is where the problem comes from.
For them when you're young you WORK. work, work, work. No time for anything else. You must work - if you take time off its because you don't care, and if you don't care, you're an ungrateful little brat. But the mental and physical symptoms I've been experiencing are really saying otherwise!! I have IBS that's been taking me to hell and back, massive back and shoulder problems, shaking, shortness of breath, nausea, tightness in my chest, tired all the time, and I've started to get hayfever for the first time in my life thats been brought on by it all. (I told my mum today that I've started to get hayfever... she said "good" - I mean, what the hell). Also feeling very claustrophobic, panicky, paranoid, and for the first time in my life I've been getting so, so angry. I get mad at everything. Even the people walking past my shop who I've never met. I guess its because I feel so trapped in this freaking place, and I see people going out, meeting their friends, going for lunch, shopping for holidays, and generally living their lives.
But if I said anything about this to my parents, they would just say "pull yourself together" and "don't be pathetic" as they have before. Everyone says "oh they must be so proud of you", but seriously, they're not. And I don't know why. My partners family are so lovely and supportive, but my parents don't like them and would be massively offended if I said I was going to stay with my partner's Dad for a week.
No idea how to start making this better.
Feels great to let it all out!!
So pleased to find this forum. I'll explain a bit about whats going on, I'll try and keep it as brief as I can.
I run my own small business and get all the stress and anxiety that comes with that territory. But, stress within the business I find can be kinda useful here and there and I can very much deal with it. I'm very proud of myself that I can run this little business well and get it to break even already, after only trading for 7 months. Woo!
But, I'm really starting to falter, and its not really the fault of my business. I'm in a sort of unusual situation which I think is why I'm finding it difficult to resolve - I've started this business in my old home town (thought it would be better to have a shop in an area I knew very well) and I stay with my parents some of the week. They also fronted the capital to start the business, so really this is their investment. Which I think is where the problem comes from.
For them when you're young you WORK. work, work, work. No time for anything else. You must work - if you take time off its because you don't care, and if you don't care, you're an ungrateful little brat. But the mental and physical symptoms I've been experiencing are really saying otherwise!! I have IBS that's been taking me to hell and back, massive back and shoulder problems, shaking, shortness of breath, nausea, tightness in my chest, tired all the time, and I've started to get hayfever for the first time in my life thats been brought on by it all. (I told my mum today that I've started to get hayfever... she said "good" - I mean, what the hell). Also feeling very claustrophobic, panicky, paranoid, and for the first time in my life I've been getting so, so angry. I get mad at everything. Even the people walking past my shop who I've never met. I guess its because I feel so trapped in this freaking place, and I see people going out, meeting their friends, going for lunch, shopping for holidays, and generally living their lives.
But if I said anything about this to my parents, they would just say "pull yourself together" and "don't be pathetic" as they have before. Everyone says "oh they must be so proud of you", but seriously, they're not. And I don't know why. My partners family are so lovely and supportive, but my parents don't like them and would be massively offended if I said I was going to stay with my partner's Dad for a week.
No idea how to start making this better.
Feels great to let it all out!!